From The Eyes of A Snail...

The Patterns...

2011-05-03T04:05:00.002+08:00

I may have just realised that I tend to write when I'm on my lowest mood and feeling sad/bad. Certainly there are explanations, among all that there's one particular reason that I always push it away even though its come to me over and over again. It's live in my conscious and subconscious mind, it's like a reminder or more like warning to myself, and yet I ignore.

It's all about love. I always fall for the wrong person with the wrong reason. When it happens, I can't help to stop thinking about them. Every single second they will appear in my mind and these images does really badly interfere with my daily live. Feeling it one thing, and need to hide it from the world is another thing! Why I can't just be a simple guy with a simple life? Why do I need to complicate my life when it's already complicated? Why do I found love in a wrong place? Why can't I just stick to The One?

I can't live my life this way. I need to stop but I just couldn't find the strength to do it. I'm sorry but i just can't continue writing as thinking of it made me sad and worse.

Long Forgotten...

2011-04-15T19:27:00.002+08:00

At some point in my life, writing was something that I always enjoy even though sometimes what I have written not even impressed me at all.

As time goes by, there's little time and less story for me to share with all my friends, and vice versa people are getting busy with their life as their open a new chapter of their life.

Do I still have the passion to write?

Man can never have to many dreams!

My dreams changes everytime and most of the times it's due to adaptation that I have to make according to recent event/scenario.

I used to dream to be a doctor to save people life and always thought that it's something easy to do. I know it may sound wrong, I decided to do medicine without a very clear mind. It's not about what I'm expecting from this job as a doctor, but it's more on the job expectation on me!

Every profession have their own responsibility, and each is different. With medicine, I never thought the responsibility will be this heavy and demanding. Studying medicine is hard work and I can't see my self as a doctor yet at the moment. Most doctors would agree with me but at the same time, it's the most rewarding profession at the end of the day.

Along with this hard work and challenging dream, which insyaAllah to be achieved next year, I have few others.

Doctor might not be my definite profession for life, but I think medicine is! As I mentioned earlier, I used to enjoy writing and actually I still am. But this dream have long way to go as I have never start on it yet.

...This blog is really 'dusty'!

2010-07-15T07:36:00.003+08:00

Last updated, 27 March 2010

about 3 weeks after started my first clinical block in Burton,

and yes,

I do missed Burton! (really?? Am I crazy??).

And now, it's final 2 weeks of my third clinical block, in Leicester General Hospital,

with honesty I can't wait for summer holiday,

because I need a BREAK!

I hope habuk dah tak de dah and

my self looking forward for next update!

27th March 2010

2010-03-28T05:33:00.001+08:00

It’s the weekend of my 4th week Cardio-Respiratory Block, and I have 3 weeks to go before next block, and yet I feel my brain is empty. It start to scare me as there’s a lot of things I didn’t know and it’s the only time before I graduate, pretty scary!

On top of that, I have a lot of things to be done and I feel it’s impossible to finish everything before the deadline! IMPOSSIBLE. Yes, that’s the word.

Feeling inferior and intimidated by the environment have always been my major major big problem. It make me insecure of everything that I do; always have bad thought before doing something.

A part from that, there’s something that I never thought that I will do and I had done it. That was IMPOSSIBLE, but yes I did it.

If only I can do the same with my study, but there’s always something pulling me back.

Two words, BRAVE and CONFIDENT.

speechlesssss….

2010-03-06T04:42:00.001+08:00

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya segala kekuatan itu datang dari Mu, dan sesungguhnya ku mohon kepadaNya kekuatan utk ku meneruskan hari-hari ku. Walaupun baru 3 hari berada di ward, tersentuh sudah hati mendengar cerita yg sedih. Ingin ku menitiskan air mata, tetapi bukan lah tempatnya kerana aku perlu kuat.

Not Worth A Penny...

2010-02-21T07:05:00.004+08:00

This entry is not for making someone look bad, it's just how I feel at the situation. If it's does hurt anybody, I do apolagize.

Already had a plan in my mind to come to london after my QE, but it's never been finalise and said out loud because I thought I might be changing my mind at the very last minute (very typical of me I guess). I was thinking of visiting friends and going places in London. Three days before my last paper, a friend from London called and I did mentioned to him that I might be going to London after the paper, but need to check first when is my paper as at that moment, the schedule hasn't been published. I explained to him that I might be going and by listened to his voice, he seems excited and said that he has nothing to do during the weekend.

That is when it goes wrong.

Lessoned no. 1, don't say anything about something if you haven't made your mind yet.

Finally, the grouping for my last paper is out and mine was on thursday. Still, no decision been made. Later that evening, he called to ask how I did in my paper, and once again he mentioned that he has no plan over the weekend and asking me to come, and yet my reply was still the same. But, I feel the guilt as giving a false hope to my friend and I was unease that night thinking about that. The next morning, I check the ticket and the price still the same as I looked a week ago, and for me it's expensive as I can get a lot cheaper price. A LOT MORE!

But then, because of the guilt I made my mind to go to London on Friday, 12.00 pm. I booked return ticket, 7.25 pm for an hour journey. Then, I texted my friend saying that I'll be coming. He then called me saying he already have plan but I can stay in his place and make it my own. Thanks, I really-really do appreciate that. But, my mind was really hay wired at that time as it's doesn't go with the plan. As I said, I really do appreciate the offer and indeed I stayed there for a night alone. The point I tried to make here is, is it worth it paying such ticket to be alone the whole night? I can be alone in my room, and don't even have to travel this far for that.

There's a lot more to mention, but I just can't go on. It's me who will be hurt in the end. Wasted Saturday, not worth a single penny.

Update, update, update....

2010-02-20T16:55:00.001+08:00

There's so many things that I want to write for this particular trip but definitely need to be at the right time. So, wait but sorry if ada yg terasa...

Tension…

2010-02-19T06:09:00.001+08:00

My mind is tired. Two years of knowledge being compressed into 3 months, and you only had support from friends. Then I thought it was over, but it wasn’t. The cycle start again, but I only had 3 weeks to cover everything and the feeling was not the same. Less anxious, less nervous. At first I thought it was good signs which might be saying that I’m ready. But it result in low motivation and less forward drive, and I just don’t want a bad outcome out of it.

My mind is tired. It’s over, but I doesn’t feel like it…

When the madness come…

2010-02-15T08:35:00.001+08:00

It’s been awhile I haven’t been actively update my blogs. Yes, I enjoy writing even though I know my language is not that good, but every time I made an entry, I feel the satisfaction.

It was a very hectic period of time, adapting to the new place, learning in new system and environment, weather especially. Exam is the main focus, and even at the moment I’m doing this entry, there’s another one more paper to be done with.

Failing is not a good feeling at all. It’s just like world fall before your eyes. Even been giving a final last chance, the feeling is not the same as you sitting for the first one. Hate to admit, but I have bad feeling about this.

Yes, I received tremendous support from family and friends so that I can go on. But sometime, reality is real, and hard to face it and I hope I don’t have to face it twice in 4 weeks time. If it does happen, believe me I don’t know how to react.

When We Start To Drift Away

2010-02-13T19:59:00.001+08:00

Cultural shock is something that I thought will never get me when I’m studying abroad. I expect a little, but I seriously didn’t expect it will be this big.

I don’t know where to start and how to say it, but I’m already drift away a little bit from what I’m suppose to do here, but just don’t worry.Is it my fault? Yes, everyday I would say to myself, it’s definitely my fault and no others to be blame for. Influence from other? Yes, there’s no doubt it’s exist and pull me toward that direction. But it’s not their fault, it’s me who made the decision and the blame is on me.

Study should be my priority, but it’s not wrong if I try something new. But the biggest mistake is, the priority somehow change and i loss my focus. As I mentioned before, cultural shock. I would say it’s not because of the differences between me and all the people here, but it’s more how to live here, and it’s depends on what kind of person you are.

As for me, I would love to tell the world who I really am, but even though I’m now far away from home, the boundaries and limitation still exist. It’s always invisible but always here, in my head. But of course, my dearest friends, my best friends I would say, would know what I’m trying to say.

Yes, there’s a couple of time I told some of my ‘new’ friends here about this, and of course they understand as they once in my position, but as we are so different culturally, they have no problem with who they are.

Drifted is Cool if you now how to get back, because if you on the right track again, you will realise mistakes that you have done. Seriously, the way back is hard to find and even harder to be on it.

Everyday I open my eyes, I feel the guilt. It’s growing everyday without a little decrement. I know it’s about time to get back to the path, but action is not as easy as the thought of it. It’s like asking a heavy smoker to stop smoking, that is exactly how difficult it is.

People can say it’s easy, as they never experienced it; but once they are, they will understand it.

Hi there....

2009-09-06T17:02:00.002+08:00

I'm having another blog!!!

Happy MOnth, Sad month...

2009-08-03T22:59:00.004+08:00

Here come August, and
In about less than 30 days,
I'll be saying good bye to my family and friends
for I will travel far across countries
For my childhood dream
and hope one day
I'll find what I've been looking for
eternal peace

Problems will never be solved
When no action is taken
It will come every second in your life
even during your happiest moment

Some problem are to stubborn
they stick on you like parasite
never let go, till you suffocated
grasping for air
and during this critical time
most of us loss our mind
and act foolishly
which welcome more problems

It just a reminder
from our Creator
for us
not too drifted away
from His path

S.O.X All Stars

2009-07-31T15:28:00.003+08:00

For a moment, this advertisement did make me confuse because i thought it would be the National Marching Band competition.
So, as ususal double and triple check at the voteband website, and date and the venue is still the same, which is next week and will be in Pasir Gudang.

Then I check the website http://www.xpax.com.my/, and give much relieve and much much good news, cause it will be different competition and it's like double competition for me and triple competition for my fellow friends!!

Want to know more about it, Please feel free to go to the website.

The Animal Planet...

2009-07-27T15:50:00.011+08:00

Mungkin anda semua tertanya-tanya, iols nak buat entry pasal binatang ke?

Hmmm, kalo nak jawab TAK, jawapannya YA, tapi kalo jawab YA, TAK sebenarnya.
Kalo nak tau kena lah baca entry iols ni sampai habis yerk!

Well, i guess this image doesn't need an introduction because definitely most of you guys know who is this supposed to be!

If your answer is ME, well that is correct!

10 Points for you

Let, see what/who else i have in line.....

This fren of mine is really 'chantum' (what he's believe he is), but everyone call him 'hodoh' if not in front of him, definitely behind his back!
Eventhough he's physically un attractive, but everyone love him as who he is, plus he has really nice and his funny character, other than 'jadi mangsa lawak kita orang'.
Back in school, and until now actually, some of us still call him with his animal name. Some of us just have the animal name, but for this special fren, he has an animal name with the country of origin, how cool is that!

Presenting to you.........

Katak Indon!

10 more points if your answer is correct!

Next animal is really big and furry, but not scarry though. He has very unique style of walking and really a nice person. Love to hang out with him cause definitely we make a lot of joke especially when the above animal is around, 'selalu dihangjingkan!'. Eventhough we didn't hang out soooo often, but every time we did, i had a good time.

Ladies and Gentlemen, Please Welcome......

Teddy Talez

This animal is really 'kecoh' and in old malay proverb would say, 'bertelur sebiji, riuh sekampung'. By that i'm 100% sure that all of you already claim your 10 points.
He's really a special fren, best fren I would say. We met during our first year in EC, when i joined the school marching band, and he was really2 want me to play trumpet, as he used to say, 'oh, senang je main trumpet ni. Awak buat bibir awak mcm awak sebut huruf M, MMMMM.... pastu awak tiup, mcm ni, MMMMMM....'(and of course, that time he's always with his handkerchief and this moment is not exceptional)

Can he bake??? Not so sure about that, be he can definitely fry!!!
well everyone can i guess....

This is what he's currently doing now, reading his way to secure his title...and kita semua yakin AWAK BOLEH!

If the hen in the picture above is completely comfortable in her 'nest', well my fren here need a larger one, as always and it's always be bigger when we met!

In addition to the hen, i have another best fren who come from the same family, bird. If hen can't fly, this one definitely can.

He's not only can fly, but he's already on his way to fame!(agak melampau ayat ni, x lah famous sgt pun! hahaha)

First clue!
(perlu ker???)

Koleksi peribadi tuan punya badan!!
Obses sgt katanya...

This talented bird make his first debut in Digi Advertisement when we call him 'just a dot'(seriously true! hehe) and 'a flash' in the second ads, McD.

The DOT advertisement!!!
(Not a Good picture, I know...Kalaulah iklan ni popular skit senang nak cari gambo)

What ever advertisement he's in or whether he's popular or not, he will always be my best frens. There so many moments together that I can never forget, not only the happy one, but also the moment when we share our fear and sadness.

Yg ni pun nak kekalkan Title Jugak!!

For whatever animal you are, i'm always happy and blessed to have you guys as my frenssss!!!

sOKLan Bonus

Sapa agaknya yg sesuai dgn character di atas????

Clue : Recent activity....

will These be the last??

2009-07-18T22:07:00.001+08:00

7 July 2009

Ke KL lagi dgn pelbagai tugasan dan tujuan. Tak der lah banyak mana pun, tapi sudah di amanahkan maka haruslah di laksanakan.

8 July 2009

Woke up early and drove my niece to school, and get my self ready to go to the UK Visa Application Centre. Since i'm not very familiar with the KL road, i just parked my car in Bkt Jalil LRT Station and take the LRT to Wisma MCA in Jalan Ampang. The visa centre situated on the 19th floor of the building and harus security tip top kat situ! Hmmm, my appointment was at 10 am, but it doesn't really mater if you haven't have one. There were not many people at that time, so it took around 20 minutes for me to submit my application.

Well, I'm supposed to meet my freind Zharif that morning, however he can't make it because there was a family emergency he need to attend.

After done with the visa application, as planned i went to KLCC. Not in my mind to do shopping, but since Big Chunk of money had been used for my visa application, i feeled much relief and it's some sort of a green light to do 'SOME' shopping. From KLCC to Sg Wang Plaza, where i lost a lot of my money there!

Before I went to KLCC, I did call Naguib and both of us agreed to meet in Mines for lunch, but we changed the venue to Tesco Ampang. So, i'm quite rushing with the shopping and walk like super fast, and I was late, super duper late because Naguib and his sister already finished with their lunch. We tried to rearrange back our plan and change the venue, but since i'm not familiar with the road, we'll just meet at the same place.

After i had my lunch while listen to Naguib' story, i went straight home.

10 July 2009

Sudah tentu, Hari ini adalah hari yg tersangat lah penting utk seorang kawan tu, dan kawan ini bukan lah calang2 kawan, antara kawan terbaik yg pernah saya ada. Macam-macam rancangan sebenarnya dah plan dengan farhat, cuma x terlaksana je, tapi apa plan itu, haruslah menjadi rahsia, mana tau boleh guna tahun depan??

Pukul 8.30 malam, satu majlis makan2 di adakan di Restoran Delicious sempena menyambut hari Kelahirannya. Saya bertolak dari rumah dalam pkl 6.30 ptg dan bersolat maghrib di Times Square sambil berwindow shopping, sempat ni!

Jumpa Farhat dkt Stesen LRT Ampang Park pukul 8 ++ malam, dan dari situ kami pun menuju ke restoran itu yang tak berapa jauh dari stesen LRT tersebut. Mereka sudah pun menunggu ke tibaan kami semua ( VVIP sungguh, mcm bday weols pulak!! hehe).

Makanan nya sungguh delicious, bersesuaian dgn namanya jugak, dan buat pertama kalinya (kalo x silaplah ) saya makan itik. Dan sebagai pengganti kepada kek, kami hanya makan cupcakes!!

Masa kita org sampai kat Situ, Naguib siap tanya pasal hadiah, malu weols semua sebab datang dengan tangan kosong. Tapi tak pe lah, yg penting kita org datang nak celebrate bday dgn Naguib dan kawan2. Selepas makan, apa lagi, snap sana, snap sini, ambil gambo! hehe...

Kita org beredar dari situ dlm pukul 11 malam, and before keluar tu kami pun telefon lah naguib (yg rasanya dah jauh kehadapan, maklumlah kereta dia kan laju) dan mengatakan Surprise, kami ada hadiah utk dia sebenarnya, cuma firasat mengatakan kalo bagi dia awal mesti dia akan buka hadiah tu on the spot, dan firasat kami mmg betul!

Di sebabkan lewat malam, saya pun bermalam lah di rumah kakak farhat di Sri Kembangan, dan kami tidu lebih kurang jam 3 pagi selepas kami berborak dan farhat menunjukkan segala model2 ciptaannya yg saya mmg tersangatlah kagum!

11 July 2009

Farhat is so hardworking! Because he's working on Saturday, so we have to get up early that day so that Farhat won't be late for work.

13 July 2009

Received SMS from VFS saying that my pasport is ready and can be collcected

14 July 2009

Went back to the Wisma MCA to collect my Visa, and today is totally different from last Wednesday, there were so many people waiting for their number to be called. For collection, we don't have to take any number as they will calling our names, and lucky enough it's only took around 30 minutes!

After that, i went to Mid Valley to do a little bit of shopping and quite disapointed because almost of the items that i want to purchase is no longger available. So, after buying something, i went for lunch and watched ICE AGE 3.

16 July 2009

I planned to go back to JB, but it did no harm if I extend a few more days. So, i went to Pudu Raya to buy a ticket on Saturday and then went to Times Square to meet Zharif as planned to watch long waited movie, Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince. From my reading, the story is interesting as always but it's not when it's being translated on the scrin, the movie is long thugh! This time around, the movie offer more love stories, one after another rather than the essential essence of Harry Potter, MAGIC!

18 July 2009

Balik JB, Bas sepatutnya pukul 2.00, tapi lambat pkl 2.30 baru jalan. Kalau lambat x pe jugak, ni siap combine passanger bas pukul 1.30, dgn pkl 2.00 naik satu bas. Kecoh betul dgn pelancong dari indonesia yg nak jugak duduk dkt seat yg tertera kat ticket dia org. Nak ikutkan semua org mcm tu, tapi kat information kaunter tu kata free seating, lagi dia org nak kecoh2. Lagi pun, dia org nak ke Singapore....

The [precious]

2009-07-05T00:53:00.004+08:00

tIME
definitely precious
but still
it's been wasted

Not talking about others
but my self
so many things has to be done
yet less had been accomplished

Time is running away
with a pace
that no one can ever catch up with
leave me behind
with no mercy

it's not the time
should be blamed
but the laziest creature
who play with time
that aren't made for that

The Truth...

2009-06-18T00:39:00.002+08:00

It's Hard to tell the truth
It's even harder to reveal it

Sometimes the truth is not to be hear
but to be seek and discover

Searching for the truth and answer
Will not be easy
If the fundamental tool is no with you

Open mind and sincere heart
will help you understand and faith to believe

Life...

2009-06-10T00:10:00.002+08:00

Some people says
Life is easy

But most people agreed that
It's not

From the day we were born,
till the day of our last breath,
there are so many obstacle
we need to face

Some of it we succeed,
but many of it we failed,
and many more to come.

People always says,
it's not the end that count,
but the turns that we take,
the path that we choose,
because from that we learned.

It's true,
but there are so many wrong turns that we take
yet, we'll still the same person as yesterday
or the day before yesterday

Changes is inevitable
but why i'm still the same
am i afraid of changing?

Metamorphosis...

2009-02-10T23:17:00.002+08:00

I was carried away
By love
That never exists
I can forgive my self
If it happened for once
But it’s twice

I was blinded by the words
That sounds so good
So nice and sweets
Make my life wonderful
Like I’m living in the world that never end

But what they did was wrong
Playing with my heart with words
The wound is so deep
The only reason
No forgiveness from me

I was naive

or still naive

I may look nice
Sound nice
And soft hearted
But after all these

Make me evil
Make me bad
I think it’s time!

The truth Will sET u Free...

2009-02-02T15:38:00.002+08:00

The truth is everything,
It's like a light that shone on the road,
Help us to step with confident,
Without fear we move forward.

Sometimes,
the truth hurt,
but believe me,
it's for the good.

But,
When you hide it long enough,
it hurts more than you think,
the pain is unbearable,
like a sword that slash your body,
like a wound that never heal,
become a disease that never recover,
it's stick to the heart,
that one's never forget.

Before you hurt me more,
just tell me the truth,
it's painful,
but believe me,
i'm ready!

Up, up and Away...

2009-01-26T00:45:00.002+08:00

At the moment I'm posting this entry,
some of my friends are away up in the sky,
embarking their new journey,
to the distant land,
away from home.

I'm being away from them,
make me unfortunate,
to see them for the last time,
to say good bye to them,
it broke my heart being unable to do so,
but anyway,
deep inside my heart,
i'll always remember them.

All the best my friends!

Bila Tiba Masanya...

2009-01-19T12:34:00.003+08:00

Bila pertama kali berjumpa,
semua terasa pelik,
ada yang ramah,
ada yang segan,
tak kurang juga mereka yang tak tahu malu!

Jalinan terbentuk,
selepas berpuluh kali berjumpa,
kepercayaan terbentuk,
bila beratus kali berjumpa.

Suka dan duka sering di kongsi bersama,
jalan yg penuh liku di hadapi bersama,
tekanan yg terasa menjadi ringan,
hanya kerana kehadiran mereka.

Tidak akan ku lupa,
gelak dan ketawa,
Akan ku ingat.
jeritan dan lalakan mereka,
Akan segar,
segala bunyi yang pelik sering kali terdengar,
Akan ku gelak kembali,
dengan lawak dan gurauan bersama,
Senyuman pasti terukir,
bila wajah mereka tergambar di minda.

Rasanya seperti semalam baru berjumpa,
berkenalan, berlawak-jenaka,
merajuk, beremosi, dan berkongsi cerita,
Namun itu semua hanyalah kenangan,
kerana semalam,
adalah hari terakhir kita bersama,
dan kini,
Masanya telah tiba.

Perjuangan masih belum selesai,
Tapi kini,
semuanya diambang perpisahan,
Bila tiba masanya,
Selamat tinggal harus ku ucapkan,
kepada mereka yg ku kenali,
kepada mereka yg ku percayai,
kepada mereka yg telah menambah warna kehidupan ke dalam diriku.

Terima kasih ku ucapkan,
kerana hehadiran kalian tidak sia-sia dalam hidup ku,
dan akhir kata,
Selamat Tinggal.

ItS been a while....

2009-01-09T07:53:00.002+08:00

i feel so relieve the exam is over,
it's like a big chunk of stone being remove from my head,
life was so miserable,
and now there are so many things to be done,
to get back into track...

Pressure...

2008-11-21T22:01:00.003+08:00

No one ask for one,
But it come over and over again,
Like a disease,
But without a sign.

It comes with reasons,
Clear or not,
It's our duty to find out,
To reveal the mystery behind.

I Breath,
I Live,
To See tomorrow...
Will I succeed, or will I failed,
Either one of it,
Will transform me,
to a new person,
But the question is,
will I be a better person, or worst?

The man of faith and believe,
Which I'm trying to be,
deep inside my heart,
I believe,
this is my test from Allah,
And He know that I can handle it, InsyaAllah.

Pressure will remain a pressure,
To be remembered,
To learn,
To discover,
The Beauty behind.

jOURNEY of My MiND....

2008-10-30T21:01:00.002+08:00

A week before raya, i got a letter from JPA which contain the grouping list for matching country, and according to that letter, i was in 3 group and JPA preference country for me are Canada, New Zealand, Australia, UK, and Ireland. When i received the letter, I was actually quite composed and really didn't mind if i was fated to go to Canada. But, right after raya another list came out and initially there was 3 groups and now, there were 4. My group was split into 2, half of it remain the same and the other half changed to New Zealand, and I was special because i was placed in 2nd Group and seriously i don't know why. So my new group is supposed to be going to Australia and i was kind of lost there, seriously i don't know what to choose. I slowly accepting this new fate of mine, so i put Melbourne uni as my first choice, and after that i don't know why i really2 hoping for a place there. But today has answered every peoples' doubt, and i wasn't excluded. I prayed for the best, and HE already answered my prayer, and i got an offer from university of Leicester, UK.

Di kAla TertekaN...

2008-10-29T16:38:00.002+08:00

Maaf kan saya kalo entry saya lately bunyinya agak tertekan, sebab saya mmg tertekan pun sekarang. First of all, exam is approaching and i'm getting seriously nervous right now. I know, may be you will asking, "when i syour exam?" Well mu final exam will be next year, 5 Jan 2009 and today is 29.10.2008, and seriously it's not that long to wait for that date! I'm not ready for the exam that is for sure, plus all other tekanan which somehow i really really really really don't know how to eliminate them. I'm just too stress and tense up lately, i don't know how to handle it anymore and sometimes i forgot who i'm. I'm not usually like this, at least i know what i'll do when i'm facing the same scenario, but this time, i'm just helpless......I'm so sorry u all have to read about all this crappy thing that i typed, but seriously i don't know who i can talk to or i just don't know how to talk to them, i just don't know where to start. I know at the moment many people are having their hard time as many will be facing their final too, so i don't think it's really proper for me to bother them with my problemss. crazy lah all this things!

Tekanan, dan Tertekan!!!

2008-10-28T00:11:00.002+08:00

EOS 5 lagi 3 bulan, bunyi nya macam lama lagi, tapi sebenarnya tidak jika dibandingkan dgn apa yg perlu di revise dan preparation yg belum cukups serta tahap confident diri yang tak menentu membuatkan 3 bulan itu bagai kan 3 hari! Dan bila memikirkan semua ini, membuatkan saya tertekan!!!!!!!!!!

Dalam keadaan tertekan, banyak juga benda2 merepak yg saya buat....contohnya hari ni, balik drpd open house ingatkan nak sambung study, tapi bila buka notes jer terus terasa tekanan and tak pasal2 decide terus pergi mid valley after asar....gila kan! dah lah duit tak ada, blh lak jalan2 ni and beli novel, tak masuk akka betul....

Pastu balik sempat lah jemaah isyak kat vista ni, pastu plan mmg nak sambung study, tapi mmg drpd mid valley perut dah berkeroncong.....apa lagi, balik mandi and masak. Nasi goreng jer, pas tu tetiba rajin buat kuah pudding sekali....plus ada tetamu yg tidak kurang istimewa dtg mkn.....

Naufal mmg dah gila, dah lost his mind!!!!

Ramadhan 1429 - Day 30

2008-09-30T14:00:00.002+08:00

Ramadhan is living us!!!

Sedar tak sedar, hari ni dah hari terakhir kita berpuasa tahun ni. Sedih memang terasa sebab tahun depan belum tentu kita semua bersua lagi dgn Ramadhan. Walaubagaimanapun, kehidupan sentiasa menuju ke hari esok,dan Alhamdulillah saya sudah melakukan apa yg termampu utk Ramadhan tahun ini. InsyaAllah jika di panjangkan umur dan di murahkan rezeki, banyak lagi yg boleh di perbaiki lagi di Ramadhan tahun depan (rasanya tak yah tunggu tahun depan kot!!!), tapi mungkin di tempat dan suasana yg berbeza!

Apa2 pun, di kesempatan ini, saya ingin mengucapkan selamat menyambut Syawal yg mulia. Semoga apa yg dipraktikan di dalam bln Ramadhan dapat diteruskan dan insyaAllah diperelokkan lagi. Kepada mereka yg bersedih-sedih tu, jgn lah diikutkan perasaan sgt, sesunguhnya kesedihan itu ujian dari Allah. Tabahlah menghadapinya (teddy tallez,kamu ok???)

Saya juga ingin memohon maaf atas segala salah dan silap, sama ada yg nyata ataupun yg 'ghaib' kepada semua sahabat handai sekalian. Luka di hati mmg susah nak sembuh, and kepada mereka yg saya tgh geram tu, saya minta maaf banyak2, i need some time to to heal my feeling......

..SELAMAT HARI RAYA..

Ramadhan 1429 - Day 24

2008-09-23T23:57:00.002+08:00

Dikala saya menaip entry ni, waktu sudah jam 12.03 am. Mengantuk memang mengantuk, lebih2 lagi bila nak bangun sahur esok. Tapi saya terpanggil utk buat entry baru. Banyak perkara yg perlu dilakukan, dan sesungguhnya waktu yg diberikan Allah itu cukup utk semuanya. Tetapi sudah menjadi lumrah manusia utk melenggahkan sesuatu yang baik dan masa sering dipersalahkan.

" Demi masa. Sesungguhnya manusia itu benar-benar berada dalam kerugian. Kecuali orang-orang yang beriman dan mengerjakan amal soleh, dan nasihat-menasihati kepada kebaikan, dan nasihat-menasihati dengan kesabaran"

[ Al-'Asr : ayat 1-3 ]

Sudah semestinya ayat di atas terlalu lazim utk kita, tapi sebagai manusia kita sering kali memandang enteng tentang masa walaupun sudah diperingatkan di dalam Al-Quran sendiri, dan diri saya tidak terkecuali. Ayatnya memang pendek tetapi penuh bermakna sekali. Azam sebelum Ramadhan banyak kekurangan dan kejahilan diri hendak di perbetulkan, tetapi sampai ke hari ini, saat ini, hanya Allah sahaja yg tahu sejauh mana saya melaksanakan azam tersebut. Bila difikirkan balik, memang salah diri sendiri kerana gagal mengurus kan masa dgn baik, dan ini meliputi segala-galanya, masa utk study mahupun masa utk bersosial. Kekesalan memang sering menyusul, tetapi kesal itu hanya sementara, dan sesungguhnya, ini tidak betul sama sekali.

Walau apa pun yang sudah terjadi, semua nya sudah menjadi sejarah dan moga-moga sejarah yang tercipta menjadi pedoman utk hari esok. Disini, saya ingin mengigatkan diri sendiri tentang penggunaan dan pengurusan masa dgn betul. Janganlah kerana kesalahan sendiri, masa yang menjadi mangsa kekejaman manusia yg mementingkan diri sendiri.

Dan kepada mereka yang gemar memberi false hope kepada kawan2 korang, hentikanlah! Kerana tiada faedahnya, ianya hanya menanam perasaan marah dan geram. Saya juga pasti anda tahu perasaan org yg mendapat false hope ni, so kalo tahu kenapa still nak buat org
lain mcm tu?

Ramadhan 1429 - Day 20

2008-09-20T14:44:00.002+08:00

Geram, Marah, Benci

Jangan tanya kenapa, tapi itulah apa yg saya rasakan di saat menaip entry ni. Bangun pagi tadi around pkl 10 pergi IMU, sebab ada rehearsal for Malaysa Cultural Week. Walaupun tak der kena mengena sgt, sebab kawan minta tlg kan, so involve lah. Lagi pun, it's for convo mag jugak. I know i shouldn't feel marah, geram and benci semua tu, tapi bila nampak muka dia kat imu tadi my mood terus bertukar. terus jadi geram, marah dan benci, waalupun dia tak buat apa2 salah. Sekarang ni, bila perasaan mcm ni mcm2 lagi terpikir, lepas tu tringat pulak janji2 org yg tak tertunai tu, so rasa geram tu terus menjadi-jadi. and sekarang ni tak tau nak buat apa. Dah lah saya menghilang kan tie Naguib, rasa bersalah tu tak hilang2 lagi dan utk itu saya membenci diri saya sendiri. Benci, benci, benci. If possible i just want to disappear for a moment, mcm nak lari.......geram

I'm so sorry if my entry this time agak merepek and tak best langsung, tapi i just don't what to do at the moment. I just don't know....

Ramadhan 1429 - Day 15

2008-09-15T07:40:00.002+08:00

Dirty Confession...

Confessions are being made because someone can't really stand to keep a secret or secrets anymore. The burden of keeping secret make them unease with their life because at some point in your life, it will haunt you. And when it does, you'll life a miserable life. Then, a thought will come to your mind that confession has to be made, but then again you'll be thinking and being afraid of what the consequences you have to pay. As for me, i'm just 22 years of age, but i live a secretive life. It's like i have 2 sets of identities, 1 for 'type A' environment and the other for 'type B' environment. Type A is when i can be my self, where i can express anything, any feeling without people being so angry about it, but the ugly part of it, i'll end up to be 'bad and wrong' people [ no offense to all my friends in this environment ]. In Type B environment, my life is more constricted and restricted, i can't say anything so freely especially i can't never express my heart fully, there's alway a part i have to keep. In other word, people in Type B environment will never know who i'm. This means that, i always have so many secret about my self that i keep from those people in Type B environment, and to be honest i can't really take it anymore. Keeping this secret just hurt me more and i definitely need help.

Now, at this moment of time, i'm thinking nothing than making a confession. I think i need to confess to ppl in B, who i'm really am. I know, the consequences are too big and hard for me to handle. But at least they will know me better, even though i know they wouldn't like it or worst isolated me.But i do need help, i don't want to live like this forever, the feeling just hurting me, and i can't stand the pain, the cut is too deep and i don't know when it will heal.

But the reality is, i don't have the gut to make the confession.......

Before being isolated, may be i should start to isolate my self from people in B. So when we less frequently meet, there will be less secret i have to keep. I hope by doing that, it wouldn't hurt me anymore. I want to change, but may be my way of doing so is just not right!

Ramadhan 1429 - Day 14 updated version

2008-09-14T23:19:00.003+08:00

The 14th day of Ramadhan this year is the longest Ramadhan i ever had so far. It's actually a normal even organized by Muslim Society during Ramadhan, however it's more special today because they are combining Ihya' Ramadhan programme, Jr orientation and iftar together. The programme should start at 9.00am, but due to unforeseen problem it had been delayed about an hour. During the whole morning we had two talks delivered by two ustaz, one from UM and the other one from Binary college. The talk end around afternoon, then i went to carefour to by SOME groceries, and as schedule there will be a quiz at 2.00pm and unexpectedly, they put my name representing my batch, and it's quiz agama ok. So wrong to pick me for this quiz. But anyway, i masuk jah, and of course with other two of my friends (kalo tak mati mak...harus lari balik jb kan!!!). The quiz end at 3.30pm and we all straight to surau c for the orientation which start wih ice breaking. So, we start the activity after performing asar prayer together-gether. And it have been a legacy for IMU, for every event being organized for junior, the number of seniors who participate will definetly out number the junior. Anyway, as i'm not the OO os SM, so i randomly joined a group (not really random actually). As every other year, we'll having treasure hunt, but as it been done in the month of Ramadhan, the activity were plan to be more passive, instead of running, we walk. Fortunately, after 2 check points, it was raining quite bad actually, so the game had to be stop for safety reasons.

We know as we always listen that people say, for every single thing that happen, there's always a reason behind it. As for today activity, i think i can relate it to myself. since morning i've been accidently being close to someone i should be avoiding, especially from the carefour until the last check point in the game. And Alhamdullilah, it was raining, which i guessed Allah help me to stay away from that person. I'm sad, but it's good for me and i should be rejoice and grateful to Allah as HE help me stay away from comitting more sin, and it's seriously a long day!

Ramadhan 1429 - Day 14

2008-09-14T08:08:00.004+08:00

Semakin lama berpuasa, sepatutnya kita dah boleh nak control apa-apa yg kita tak dapat control masa bulan tak puasa. Tapi, kenapa lah aku ni makin lama berpuasa, macam sama jer, kadang-kadang terasa makin teruk pun ada jugak. Aku banyak menanam azam utk ramadhan kali ni, antaranya menjaga pandangan, sebab aku rasa pandangan aku sgt jahat. Setiap kali terpandang benda yg best je, hati mesti tak tenang, dan otak terus terfikir benda yg tak sepatutnya. Semuanya mcm 'domino effect', sebab tu aku decide nak jaga mata yg rabun ni. Tapi, sejujurnya aku masih belum berjaya, and kadang-kadang tu mcm nak buat announcement kat dia orang ni yg aku ni tuuuuuuuuuuuuuut, lepas tu may be baru dia org sedar kot mcm mana dia org kena behave and wear something yg appropriate utk mata I.

Diva ke aku sampai ada org nak buat semua tu semata-mata utk aku??

Ramadhan 1429 - Day 13

2008-09-13T01:09:00.003+08:00

Month For Reflection

Without realizing it, we already went through almost half of Ramadhan, the month full of wonder. For me, Ramadhan is the month for me to reflect back on all the things that I've done through out the previous year. But, as a human, i do have weaknesses to be able to correct all the bad things i did. I tried my best, in deed i'm still trying to refrain my self from seeing him. Yes, it's true i'm avoiding him not in an obvious way( it doesn't really matter actually, because he'll never realize it). I have no clue whether i'm exaggerating my feeling or not, but i know, i try to protect my iman and faith. I don't want to drag my self deep into the problem, i'm just afraid that i couldn't find my way back to reality, the 'hakikat' of my self!

There's always reason for all my acts. Why, i'm keeping my self away from other? why i'm like to be alone? It's just a mechanism that i'm always think it will protect me from my 'wrong desire'. It's really hard to be me, as people always think that i have a complicated mind and thinking. But it's ok, i'm open for critics. And i reflect more on my self, that not the only problem need to be corrected, there are many more and i hope i'll manage to do it, slowly, one bye one.........

Harapan Ramadhan

Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan
Kali ini penuh makna
Agar dapat kulalui
Dengan sempurna

Selangkah demi selangkah
Setahun sudah pun berlalu
Masa yang pantas berlalu
Hingga tak terasa ku berada
Di bulan Ramadhan semula

Puasa satu amalan
Sebagaimana yang diperintahNya
Moga dapat ku lenturkan
Nafsu yang selalu membelenggu diri
Tiada henti-henti

Tak ingin ku biarkan Ramadhan berlalu saja
Tuhan pimpinlah daku yang lemah
Mengharungi segalanya dengan sabar

Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan
Kali ini penuh makna
Agar dapat kulalui
Dengan sempurna

Ku memohon pada Tuhan diberikan kekuatan
Ku merayu pada Tuhan diterima amalan

Selangkah demi selangkah...
Dengan rahmatMu oh Tuhanku...
Ku tempuh jua

Ramadhan 1429 - Day 3

2008-09-03T17:15:00.002+08:00

can't believe I'm saying good bye to my tutor.

even though he's the kind that always scolded people,
always with his serious and fierce face,
and always call people stupid,
and if every time i walked pass him,
I would try to avoid making eye contact with him,
or worst,
I would run!

He's very strict person,
but I enjoyed his class,
even though my heart will beating fast,
and i would feel scare or nervous,
but I realize that,
i learned more.

He's person with many story,
with word of wisdom,
which bring me far across time and space,
he make me see the past,
peek over the future.

I know people will think i'm crazy,
but seriously for sure,
I'll be missing him.

Ramadhan 1429 - Day 2

2008-09-02T09:25:00.002+08:00

Ramadhan is here once again,
and Alhamdulillah,
I've been given an opportunity to live till today,
to meet, once again
the holy month of Ramadhan.

Many things need to be achieved in this month,
and of course,
priority is given for the spiritual component,
to be clean and nourished,
so that,
our Iman and faith become stronger.

I hope,
I'll be stronger to face the day,
to become a better person,
to become a better muslim,
to declare everything and stop being hypocrite even to myself,
to stop all the madness ,
that I've promised my self over and over again.

I hope,
I can walk this month with success,
InsyaAllah.

eXTENDED hOLIDAY@!!!!!

2008-08-30T16:42:00.006+08:00

since plan on wednesday tu mcm terganggu sikit, kita org extend balik on thursday.....tapi still we were being unlucky because it was raining, so melepaslah nak pergi ke waterfall....so, bila hujan dah reda kita org pun pergi breakfast jah!!!

-pekat gila warna air teh dia?!!!-

-nasi kandar-

Dah makan semua, pegi jetty beli tiket ferry and kita org balik aroun 12.30 pm

-love is in the air!!!!-
-aidil dah jumpa ker jawapan kepada clue-clue iols???-

-me and FIR, the island boy, hehehe!!!-

Sampai saja Perlis terus ke rumah zaquan for lunch!!!

Ater lunch terus gerak ke Sg Petani hantar Azraq, then kelantan nak hantar Sit, so bermulalah journey yg memenatkan!!!

sampai kelantan roun pkl 11, pi mkn pas tu mmg tak tahan terus kerumah Sit and tido kat sana

-my dinner-

-tido dlm kelambu, classic gitu!!!!huhuhu-

So, on Friday morning tu after breakfast terus gerak ke terengganu and around pkl 12.30 sampai and lunch kat rumah Baang!!!

From Terengganu plan nya teus balik ke KL, tapi sempat lak singgah kat KYUEM, lama gilerrrrrrrrr aku tak kesana!!!!rindu!!!!

-cuba cari baang kat mana????-

PASTU terus balik vista at last....and after mandi gi keluar lagi ambil Fir kat pudu sebab tiket flight dia delay, so tak smepat nak naik train!!!!

interpretasi???

-End of unExpected Journey-

WOnDeRfUL wEdnEsDay...

2008-08-30T15:20:00.009+08:00

The LAST dAY...

since today is the last day, banyak aktiviti dah plan for this final day.
so early in the mornig kita org pergilah ke gunung Raya??utk naik cable car kat sana.
So, along the way, nampak satu gerai yg ramai org, so kita org stop kat sana for breakfast

-katanya nasi lemak???-

-nilah tempatnya, jauh jugak sebenarnya-

Kita org sampai around pkl 9.00 lebih, and saya mmg tersangat excited utk hari ni, tapi yg paling best sekali ialah....

-nampak tak apa yg tertera kat situ???-

-sekarang sure nampak kan???-

Geram tak anak-anak semua??? geram kann!!! But anyway, dah takdir kita org mcm tu so tak leh nak buat apa-apa. So, kita org just jalan-jalan je lah kat kawasan tu...

.
-chantique kan???-

-sampai ke Thailand tau iols berjalan-

-tgk kambing teringat kat Naguib, huhuhu....-

-comel kan!!!!-

Nak tunggu pkl 12 mmg lah lama lagi, so kita org pun keluar lah sat pi ambil minyak kat 'pelabuhan harbour' nama tmpt tu, kata Fir lah, the island boy!!! Bila tgk peta, Telaga Harbour rupanya, mmg tak boleh pakai! hehehe, Jgn marah!!!

-seronok pulak tgk kapal-kapal nie-

-kenapalah aku selalu kena tinggal????-

-mamat ni mmg kaki tido (tapi dia tak sihat sebenarnya)-

-muka ngantuk kan tue???-

-kena beratur ikut petak kat lantai tu!-

-rahsia di sebalik senyuman??-

since hujan kat puncak gunung tu, kita org tak lah lama melepak kat sana. Bila dah puas bergambo, kita org pun turun balik ke kaki bukit???

Pastu balik ler ke kuah semula, tapi sebelum tu sempat lah menyinggah kat tempat2 berikut....

-shopping barang2 gamat, boleh???-

-pyramid gitu!!!-

-tengok botol ni teringat kat Aidil!!!opssss, silap ker???-

-me with the largest minyak gamat ever!!!??-

-singgah sat pi makan cendol special ni-

sampai-sampai Kuah sambung lagi ni window shopping, penat mak nak melayan!!!1

-bacalah sendiri-

sementara org lain sibuk berwindow shopping, i'm all alone went to Dataran Lang, and it's one of my unlucky day, they were no people around to take picture for me, sob sob!!

Baang di Alam Fantasi!!

-dinner kat pasar malam jer!!!-

At the end of the day, do i look satisfied, sad, tired or emoing???? you judge!!!

ExPEcT tHE uNeXpEcTed...

2008-08-30T14:09:00.004+08:00

Second day, snorkeling in Payar Island which cost RM 140 per person with our boat, 'exclusively our' plus packed lunch. So, around 10.00 am we left the jetty for the Payar Island. The reached there after 45 mins in our 'exclusive boat'. We quite disappointed actually because we expect to much from this snorkeling trip, but anyway, the fishes here are quite colorful plus sharks that swim very-very near us during the 'feeding time'. Anyway, i'll upload the picture when i got the copy from my freinds.

We left the Island around 3.30 pm and rest at our apartment. Later in the evening we went out for window shopping. Well I'm actually don't have any budget for shopping......

First destination

-langkawi parade-

dah puas jalan2 kat sini, kita org carilah masjid nak pi sembahyang
pas tu sambung lagi, tapi kat tmpt lain pulak, dekat pkn kuah

-banyak gila coklat, rasa mcm nak curi jer-

-Ingat tak kedai ni???-

so, bila dah penat cuci mata, mestilah lapo kan???sapa lapo angkat tangan!!!!Finally, during the 2nd night kita org makan jugak kat restaurant ni, and the food boleh tahan lah!!!!

-tea O ice Limau, tapi i'm still confuse kenapa dia bagi sudu sekali??-

Word of a day!!!
-short-

Kedai Kena Pangkah

-kedai camera baang!!!-

kedai ni mmg kena pangkah habis-habisan, seriously!!!!

SErIoUsLy UnExPeCtED!!!!

2008-08-30T11:39:00.015+08:00

After we change our clothes, we went back to the Jetty to take our boat to Pulau Dayang Bunting, but before we reached there, there were few pit stop. First, we stop at Pulau Singa Besar to watch eagles feed on the fish, then to Pulau Beras Basah. Abg bot tu kata kalo nak mandi blh, tapi semua org were not in the mood mandi kat laut, which include me, and i don't know why?????? So, we just take pictures at the Beras Basah island, and if you don't see me in the picture that mean i'm the one who taking the picture, why???? bEcause Adam forgot to bring his bag which Azraq already put in his camera in the bag, and zaquan camera is run out of battery, so it's only me with my camera!!!!!!!!boleh?????

-apa-apapun, i still maintain ok!!!-

-buang air boleh tak????-

From the Island, we went straight to Tasek Pulau Dayang Bunting.
-excited ker???-

-ni over excited, hahaha-

-it's goes without saying!!!-

-sebelum sampai tasek, kena naik tangga dulu-

-bila naik, mesti ada turunnya, curam kan!!!!-

-finally, the lake!!!-

"mak, tolong!!!! This is why I don't want to leave my house"
(opsssss, jgn marah!!!)
-jgn tanya kenapa, huhuhu....tergelak ambil gambo ni-

"i'm ok!!!!"

-eh, ok dah org Pulau ni??? huhuhu....-

-apa tunggu lagi, terjun lah!!!! tak kan masing-masing layan jiwang kot, ingat awek ke??-

"hari ni hari apa?"
-dua org kanak2 ribena yang riang-

-berkayak, tapi dia org ni slow, ya ke????- hhuhuhu

-hehee, funniest couple ever, sekejap gila dia org main paddle boat ni- opsssss, jgn marah!!!!
(rasanya boat ni senget sebelah hari tu, hehehe)

-kami bertiga naik paddle boat jugak, tapi special ada solar panel, so tak yah lah bersusah payah paddling, hhuhuhuhu-

Around pkl 4.30 tu kita org pun pulang lah semula ke pulau besar, sesapa yg kelaparan sempatlah menyinggah kat bread story beli roti, sayalah tu!!!!hehehehe. So, we take our break off during that evening and go out for dinner after maghrib prayer. So, Fir the island boy took us to this restaurant....

-This restaurant look appealing, so dengan rasa lapar kami semua melangkah-

-sampai je kia org nampak sign ni terpampang kat tiang depan kedai mkn tu!!!!-
"sapa lapar angkat tangan???"

so, kita org pun bergerak ke kilim. Menurut abg boat tadi, dia kata kat sini ada kedai makan sea food. So it's take around 45 mins to reach there. sampai sana Azraq pun belok ke kanan, ke satu lorong yang sangat gelap and sunyi. May be orang kat kilim ni memang suka main sorok2 kot, bagi surprise kat pelancong!!! bergerak lah sampai ke hujung jalan, dan masih menghampakan, sebab tak der apa2 ok!!!!!!! fir pun tanya lah sorang pak cik ni kat mana ada kedai makan seafood semua, cuba teka pak cik tu jawab apa???? Pak cik tu kata kat Kuah banyak kedai mcm tu!!!!!!

sapa lapar angakat tangan lagi sekali?????

Last last, sampai kuah makan kat food court jah, yg paling best ambil order sendiri, ambil makanan sendiri, kalo kat situ ramai org tak per jugak, ni org tak lah ramai sgt!!!!!(semua org mcm emo, so malas nak ambil gambo, saya emo jugak!!)

What a first day!!!!

Words of a day!!!

bag
camera
battery
ikan bakar

Kedai kena Pangkah!!!

food court

The UnExpeCted jOurNeY !!!!

2008-08-30T09:10:00.015+08:00

Sem 4 holiday,

Lama dah plan Nak pergi Langkawi,
Kepalanya Azraq Dgn Bantuan Fir, the Langkawi people!
BUT the journey is more than i expected plus disappointment.....
So, uols semua nak tahu apa yg terjadi???

-From JB to KL-

I went back early to KL as I have a reunion gathering at Palo's place on Saturday, 23 August 2008, which we had a very fantastic time together, chatting and catching up with each other life. I went back on Friday together with Aizat and Ezzat and we did hang out together with Helmi later in the evening at the Pavilion KL. So, Friday marked my routine journey from south to the central of Malaysia.

-From KL to Perlis-

The planned was to take bus from KL to Kangar, unfortunately all the ticket to Kangar was sold out for Sunday night, 24 August 2008. It was a very hectic place for Aizat, Ezzat and I to search for the ticket from one counter to another. Still i can't believe it, the ticket was sold out!!! So,i called Zaquan and few minutes later, they all decided to drive to Perlis. So, on Sunday night, we (Adam, Zaquan, Baang and I) travel from Central of Malaysia to the North, and seriously this is my first time going north with friends. Before reaching Perlis, we went to kedah to fetch Sit who came from Kelantan. We leave KL around 11.00 pm and reach Kedah around 5.00 am, then we performed our Subuh prayer somewhere in Perlis then breakfast.

-comelkan!!!!!-

S$, these is our breakfast, nasi lemak yg comel, huhu. Well actually we had eaten something in Kedah, so after these breakfasts i'm quite full!!!! Suddenly, without any warning, it's raining very heavily, and we stay for a few minutes to wait for the rain to stop but it didn't, so we just continue our journey to Zaquan's house in Kg Permatang Bongor (Adam lupa nak tutup tingkap kereta dia, so basah sikit, jom ramai2 gelak kan dia, hahahaha). Sesampainya di sana, kena makan lagi, but seriously i already full and can't eat anymore, but Zaquan parents insist so i just mkn cempedak goreng jer, tu pun sebiji, huhuhu...terasa jahat pulak, tapi seriously kenyang ok!

-Terminal Feri Kuala Perlis-

After breakfast at Zaquan's place, we went straight to the above place, Terminal Feri Kuala Perlis. We arrived there around 9.00 am, but the ferry left already so we have to wait for 1 hour for the next ferry and the ride cost us RM 18.00. So, sesapa yg tak cukops tido tu, sambung lah tido kat jeti ni!!! Azraq was already in Langkawi since Saturday, and they asked us to come as early as possible without saying why, and every time we called they will asked the same thing and we all were very clueless!!!

-zAQuan-

-NI bAANG!!!-

-ni Sit, Kembar Baang! huhuhu-

-kenapalah mulot aku ternganga nio???-

OK, the most worst ferry riding in my life was this one!!!! They said it usually take only about 45 mins from the jetty to Langkawi, but the ferry that we took that day broke down and it's take time to fix it and we took 2 hours before reaching Langkawi!!!!! Mak oi, terumbag-ambing aku kat dlm ferry tu, pening, pening!!!! So, we all reached Langkawi around 12.00 pm, and Azraq and Fir were already there waiting for us. Then we had lunch and straight to MRSM Langkawi, because we staying there and it's lame, that what etolzz said, me nO comment!!!.

-the one on the right is Adam-

-tAK larat, pening!!!-

Kedai Kena Pangkah

kedai makan adik cun

Kena Tagg LAGI!!!

2008-08-30T08:17:00.001+08:00

nAme 5 pEople yOu cAn tHink oF rIght oFf tHe tOp oF yOur hEad. dOn't rEad tHe qUestionaire uNderneath uNtil yOu wRite tHe nAmes oF aLl 5 pEople. tHis iS a lOt fUnnier iF yOu wRite tHe nAmes rAndomly. nO cHeating!!!

• X X X
• Naguib
• Farhat
• Aidil and Kandryx
• Joey

Reminder : Don't read ahead unless you fill above names first!

Question 1 : How do you meet 1?

I meet XXX at Uni, and I don’t want to elaborate more, how and why, sebab nanti ‘kantoi mak ayam’…..susah hidup I nanti, kalo nak tahu nanti kita borak2 and have a tea together ok!

Question 2 : On the Scale of 1 - 10, how you rate your relationship with no 1?

Hmmmm, susah jugak nak jawab soalan ni, rasanya just so-so jer…but since I have to put it into scale, I think it’s around 5, because I’m nothing to XXX

Question 3 : How long have you known 4?

Hahahaha, Aidil you also the forth person in my list…but special because you come together with kandryx the ‘Don’…hahaha. I meet them when I joined EC marching band, and if not mistaken masa tu Aidil belum ada, so I meet Kandryx dulu….Hmmmm, so kandryx I dah kenal since 1999, and Aidil the next yaer if not mistaken!!!

Question 4 : How do you know number 3?

Farhat, one of my best frens….i meet him also when I joined marching band…biut before that, I already knew hin because he was in the class next to mine when we were in form 1….huhu

Question 5 : Where 5?

He’s having his summer holiday right now if not mistaken, and his studying in UK

Question 6 : A Fact about number 1?

suara sgt kuat, kalo bercakap tu mcm menjerit and kalo gelak mmg over, in my eyes dia sgt baik, but you know, from many angle he’s no much different from any other XY

Question 7 : Who is no 4 going out with?

AMBOI, clue ke aidil? I rasa Aidil is dating kandryx sekarang ni!!!! larikkkkkkkkkkk

Question 8 : What does no 1 do for living?

dia still study lor!!!

Question 9 : Would you live with number 3?

ok jah kot

Question 10 : What do you like about no 2?

Ke’ayam’annya yg terserlah! Huhuhu…Naguib is very close to me, if there’s any problem he’s among the first one will know about it and when I say problem it mean everything from A to Z. And of course he will listen to me and give feed back, although sometime hush feed back, but it’s ok….huhuhu. But 1 benda yg tak berubah ialah, dia still bawa bakul ke mana2 dia pergi, kadang2 besar, kadang2 kecil bakulnya, huhuhu…

Question 11 : Do you miss number 5?

miss jugak, lama kot tak jumpa. Last time jumpa around April if not mistaken….

Question 12 : Would you make out with number 4?

hUrm...aidil and kandryxx ke?...soalan tricky...x suke...i'll pass...next...

Question 13 : What you opinion of number 2?

mcm dah ter bagi tau kat soalan 10 tadi…but I think he’s tutttttt………..huhuhu

Question 14 : What is your fave memory with number 5?

masa kat college dulu lah, gossip2 pasal jantan kan! Huhuhu….

Question 15 : What would you do if number 1 going out with number 2?

oh my God, I’ll kill my self as I can’t take it….menangis mak!

Question 16 : ever had a long conversation with number 5?

bukan setakat conversation, berkaraoke online pun pernah ok!

Question 17 : have you ever slept at number 2's house?

oh my god, countless kot. Rasanya mcm my second house dah, opssss! huhuhu

Question 18 : Do you hang out with number 3 often?

selalu jugak…..

Question 19 : Who do you known the longest?

Naguib and Farhat, since 1999 until today and perhaps forever

Question 20 : How often do you talk to number 1?

Ala, kenapa Tanya soalan cepu mas gangsa and perak sekali gus ni….Hmmmmm, adalah jugak but I’m always invisible so, imagine kah sendiri mcm mana!!!

Question 21 : What about number 2?

Naguib, kalo bercakap dgn dia mmg kadang2 dia jer sorang yg bercakap! Opssss huhuhuu

Question 22 : Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?

ahahahaha, soalan ni mcm tak patut Tanya lah……

Question 23 : May be you want to go out for a date with number 5?

Never, tak sesuai…..sama species kot!

Question 24 : Do you dream about number 2?

hmmmm, seingatnya mcm tak pernah, tal tau lah kalo terlupa kan…..

Question 25 : What did number 4 did to you that you never forget?

masa dia org tipu, kata adik Kandryx dah kawen sebab tak tahan sgt dah….lama kot I percaya!!!!!!

Question 26 : What have you done to number 1 that he never forget?

kena lah Tanya dia, buat apa Tanya I, tak sesuai lah……

Question 27 : What is number 3's hobby?

clubbing!!???? Opsssss, betul ke? I main hentam jah!

Question 28 : Who do u want to tag?

http://hati-batu.blogspot.com/

http://ed-ahmad.blogspot.com/

http://beaksofhenandparrot.blogspot.com/

Benci Tapi Suka...

2008-08-21T12:38:00.001+08:00

In a state of denial, people will hate something that they like or they love. May be, it's just how human react when they trying to forget about something or someone. I'm no any difference in the same situation. I hate everything that person wear or use, and the most prominence thing is the perfume and slipper. I hate those things the most, i hate to smell the perfume, and definetly hate to see the slipper anywheee. But my heart is fragile, the more i hate, the more i miss the person!

Wahhh...agak lama tak update!

2008-08-18T00:19:00.002+08:00

sorrylah Uols,
lama iols tak update iols punya blog ni,
other then nothing interesting to write,
I've been busy with my GP posting last week,
and during the weekend,
there was a family meeting,
so, I'm quite busy here.....

Next full week is holiday,
and I'm planning to revise a bit on my notes,
but usually it won't happen...
it kind of predicted act!
huhuhu....

TaG fRom kAndrxx...

2008-08-15T20:33:00.002+08:00

1. Story behind your MySpace song?
hmmm...I tak der account MySpace, so tak der lagu lah kan!

2. Whats bothering you right now?
kecantikan diri Iols yg tersangat cantik, ramai org jealous...

3. Do you close the door when you pee?
duuuhhhh, of course!!!!

DESCRIBE YOUR:

4. Wallet?
Brown in colour, sgt lelaki...???

5. Wallpaper on your computer's desktop
Gambo Band masa KLWMBC

6. Background on your cell phone?
The incredibles, sebab sgt comel lambang 'I' tu!!!

7. Jewelry worn daily?
none

8. Where your default picture was taken?
dEfault pIc fOr wHat???hUrm...
mcm pernah jumpa jawapan, tapi di maan ya!

9. Eye color?
Hitam itu bergaya!

10. Life:
is mystery not misery..

11. House:
menumpang jah kat rumah yg beso ni!

WHAT ARE YOU?

12. Doing this weekend?
rasanya nak menyundal!

13. Wearing?
nothing!!

14.Wanting?
biarlah rahsia...

15. Where are you?
atas kerusi..

16. Listening to?
nothing

17. Have you ever hugged or kissed anyone lately?
-nope-

18. What do you smell like?
Apple....

19. Eating?
murtabak

20. Besides your bed, what is your favorite things?
my everything!

21. Do you believe in a soul mate?
ya kot

22.Do you sleep naked?
-never-

23. Do you remember your dreams?
not always, yg best jah i ingat

24. Do you believe dreams come true?
when u work hard enough,may be!

25. Do you believe in miracles?
sometimes

26. Do you burn easily in the sun?
senang gila!

27. Do you speak another language other than English?
bAhasa mElayu...my mother tounge

28. What's something you wish you could understand better?
my self!

29. What did you do last weekend?
went to my aunt's house in Kajang

30. Who do you miss?
******* ****** ******
(nama penuh tu, tekalah)

31. Have you ever been in a car crash?
so far, belum!!

32. Orange or apple juice?
Apple!

33. Who were the last people you went somewhere with?
my mom, balik from klinik tadi

34. What was the last text message you received?
when r u coming back here?

35. Last text message you sent?
most probably by the end of next week

36. Last time you ate a home grown tomato?
tomato's not my favorite

37. What is the closest thing to you that is blue?
cawan

38. What was the last thing you ate?
dah jawab kan soalan ni tadi!!!

40. Whose house did you go to last night?
my own house!

41. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
Jeloh a/p Muresat

42. Do you like someone right now?
haruslah, dah rindu2 mestilah suka...duhhh

43. What do you wear more, slacks, jeans, or sweatpants?
jeans...

44. What is the last movie you watched?
X-files, and seriously waste of time and money

45. Have you ever heard of the band Sweet Garden
X

46. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
BELILAH!!!

47. Coach or NFL game tickets?
COCKROACH KE???

48. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
because his lips as sweet as apple....

49. Do you believe that you can change someone?
hUrm...nOt sUre...

50. Do you want someone you can't have?
Always!!!!!

Penatlah jawab soalan ko ni.......
i nak pass kat sape lak nie...

Hidup Memang Tak Senang, Tapi Tak Juga Susah

2008-07-28T00:09:00.006+08:00

Hmmm...
every entry should meant something,
but mine just a very minor and sometime very stupid,
but at the end of a day,
it's depend to the reader,
whether the entry is meaningful or not...

As for today,
I would say this entry is a reminder for me,
and for all the reader,
which include those who discover this blog by chance...

Saya ni tak lah sebaik mana,
tapi bila seseorang itu memerlukan nasihat dan pendapat,
saya rasa,
saya patut menunaikan hak mereka...

Sebagai seorang manusia,
Kita memang tidak pernah SEPI dari melakukan kesilapan,
dan hampir semua kesalahan itu,
kita lakukan dgn sengaja.

Kita sedar apa yg kita lakukan itu adalah salah,
dan kita juga tahu,
hukum melakukan kesalahan itu,
Tapi kita masih melakukannya.

Dan setiap kali melakukannya,
perasaan kesal pasti menyusul,
bersama azam tidak mahu melakukannya lagi,
namun,
manusia sering kali tewas dgn nafsu dan hasutan syaitan,
dan ini menyebabkan kita melakukan kesalahan yang sama,
berulang kali,
dan lengkaplah satu kitaran dosa.

Tiada nasihat lain yg dapat saya beri,
selain bertaubat kepadaNya.
Dan kita haruslah kuat,
dan yakin kepada diri sendiri,
bahawa kita boleh berubah.

Kepada yang berkenaan,
cubalah renungkan kesalahan yg telah kamu lakukan,
mungkin pada mata mereka di barat,
ianya normal,
dan sudah menjadi kebiasaan remaja zaman sekarang,
namun ianya sama sekali bertentangan dgn Islam dan budaya hidup kita,
dan saya pasti anda tahu semua itu.
Apa yg saya boleh katakan di sini,
'take it slowly'
Dan bertindaklah sebaik mungkin,
menggunakan akal,
supaya maruah diri yg tercalar tidak tercemar,
dan cubalah hentikan kesilapan itu.

Saya mengaku,
memang sukar untuk melawan nafsu,
tapi cuba bayangkan anda berada di tempat saya,
terpaksa berlawan dgn nafsu setiap saat setiap detik
SETIAP KALI mata terpandang,
pasti nafsu membisikkan sesuatu,
dan pada masa itulah jiwa bergelora,
fikiran tak menentu,
dan akal sering kalah,
namun,
saya terpaksa menguatkan diri,
dan kuatkan diri.

Saya bukanlah contoh yg baik,
tapi kadang2,
manusia suka belajar daripada contoh yg tak baik!

Harap,
apa yg cuba disampaikan,
dapat diterima oleh semua pembaca...

Nak Update Jugak...

2008-07-27T00:21:00.002+08:00

saya berada di KL dah,
and for sure,
saya tak puas berada di JB,
tak puas,
and rasanya nak balik semula,
berada di JB,
seolah-olah boleh melupakan apa yg ada di KL,
the distance keep me away from my life in KL...
huhu...

tak tahu nak tulis apa sebenarnya,
yg sebenarnya banyak nak tulis,
but i think i should keep it to my self,
huhu
but anyway,
saya dah update!
busy,busy,
well at least my mind is busy!
huhu...
banyaknya huhu..
huhu...

Bila Aku Menyampah...

2008-07-24T22:55:00.003+08:00

BILA AKU MENYAMPAH...
MEMANG SANGATLAH MENYAMPAH...
DAN MACAM SEKARANG NI...
MEMANG TENGAH MENYAMPAH...
KALO TAK NAK MASUK, JGN BUKAK PINTU...
KALO TAK NAK MAKAN, JGN MASAK...
KALO TAK NAK BASAH, JGN MANDI...
KALO TAK NAK CERITA, JGN BUKAK CERITA!!!!!

can you simply say something is waste of time just because you don't like it?

2008-07-23T00:08:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry if the title is too long...
but seriously,
that's what i'm going to mention in this entry...

when i was in high school,
i never ever like football,
and even until now,
but still i can watch it for few minutes,
but at that time,
i always thought that it's really waste off time playing football,
chase a ball among 11 other players,
and sometime,
the players do fight with one and another...
and for me,
that is really waste of my time.

i used to play games,
computer games especially,
but i grow up,
i played less and less game,
and up to one point,
i think,
by playing games,
i waste my precious time,
and sometimes
i just can't imagine,
how people enjoy playing games,
computer games, play station, wii,
and sit in front of the tv/pc for hours,
doing nothing than playing games...
well, if it for about an hour, i still can accept,
but more than that,
seriously waste of time...

then suddenly it's occurred to me that,
is it fair to say something is waste of a time,
just because u don't like it,
or just because u don't enjoy doing it?

well,
seriously i don't know whether it's fair or not,
but my opinion is that,
if u don't like something,
but u see other people are enjoy doing it,
just leave them alone,
and don't try to 'hasut' other people to hate that things,
and don't even criticize people just because they like stuff that you aren't...
because not everyone is this world,
like every single little thing that you do,
so, just shut your mouth!

Petani Moden Yg 'Vogue'

2008-07-21T11:06:00.002+08:00

Saya lah tu!

petani moden yg vogue, and of course Naguib sekali

huhuhu.....

sekarang ni tgh geram

sebab printer kat imu ni gila

printer sgt lembab

dah lah Q yg sgt panjang

kalah Q nak beli tiket utk midnite kat pavillion tahu!

nak guna taktik aidil tak tau nak call sapa kan,

gerammmmmm betul!

Anyway,

back to our Happy story...

as bee mentioned in previous entry that i'll be going to malacca to Naguib's hometown

(tapi Naguib org KayEel, mcm mana ni!)

so, saturday tu

bangun agak lambat dan tak nak bangun sebenarnya,

tapi kena lah bangun buat2nya tak der tiket ke melaka,

mati mak kena sumpah dgn mak ayam tu....

sampai pudu around pkl 9.30 tu,

apalah ticket hunt lah kan,

and terus ke counter transnasional, then ke kkkl

and dua2 bas ni tiket pkl 11.30..

mati berjanggut lah Mak tunggu kan!

so, naguib kata try DElima and Alhamdulillah ada tiket pkl 10.30am, terus beli...

and stop kat Alor Gajah, and Naguib and his Mom fetched me there...

Sampai jah, terus mereka bawa iols pergi lunch

and Masa yg ditunggu-tunggu pun tiba,

pergi ladang parent naguib,

iols sgt teruja tgk segala haiwan2 di situ,

kecuali Mak aYAM lah, dah biasa tgk!

and saya jathu hati dgn Orkid,

seekor anak kambing yg sgt comel dan comel, comel sgt,

kalah kecomelan Sheepon Aidil,

opssss, jgn marah!

Sebelum weols bagi Kambing makan,

weols melantak lah rambutan dulu....

sambil borak2 and jealouskan si parrot tu,

huhuhu....

bagi kambing makan is not an easy job,

especially iols yg kurus alah2 tiang lampu ni,

berat ok guni2 rumput yg telah di 'blender' tu,

kalo i kerja sebulan kat situ,

harus muscular badan aku jadinya...

and bila time makan jah,

kambing2 ni terus mengembek-ngembek,

dan 'embekkan' orkid jugak yg paling comel dan seksi....

hahahaha....

Agak2 mcm dah nak mlm tu,

weols pun mandilah,

nak ronggeng kat bandar hilir pulak!

malam tu naguib bawa ronda2 melaka,

jadi tourist guide kan,

seronoklah MAk AyaAM tu!

stop pertama,

Dataran Pahlawan yg vogue tu,

naguib kata biasa jah,

tapi i rasa mcm vogue jah

huhuhu,

dah puas jln2, kita org ke mahkota parade pulak,

cross the road jah!

dah ronda2, ronda2, romda2

kita org pun bergegas mcm pondan

ke Menara berputar Taming sari...

Naguib, video harus upload kat blog ni!

huhuhu....

weols semua sgt excited naik benda tu,

seronok tau uols sambil mendengar alunan lagu seri Mersing,

kalo tak cakap sapa nyanyi pun, mesti uols semua boleh agak kan?

so, after tu terus ke Melaka central utk beli tiket

and ambil kak Anis sekali...

sampai sana around pkl 10, and haruslah

semua counter dah tutup kan!

so kita org melanggok lah kat situ sementara menunggu ketibaan kak Anis

Bila dah sampai, weols terus lah menuju satu tempat

utk mengisi perut kami yg lapar ni...

dah makan,

terus ke ladang semula and ambil parent naguib,

and menuju ke satu tempat lagi,

yeay boleh tido,

mata mcm dah kena gam dah sebenarnya,

huhuhu....

sampai2, basuh2 apa yg patut solat and tido!

Keesokannya, bangun lebih kurang pkl 9.00 gitu,

and lepas tu weols semua pergi breakfast,

then ke Melake central,

nak cari tiket nak balik petang tue,

and yg paling best,

sampai2 jah,

all today's ticket is sold out,

boleh,

kalah tiket wayang tau!

then straight to LADANG balik....

so, 2nd day kat ladang ni weols bagi makan kat anak2 Naguib,

dan sepupu sepapat dia org....

and hari mcm relaks sikit,

tapi hari nilah weols beraksi dgn payung,

petani moden katanya and

kecantikan hak milik setiap insan,

haruslah weols jaga....

akan disambung.....

Alhamdulillah...

2008-07-18T11:50:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah...
i pass my semester 4 exam,
eventhough i only managed to get B-, but i passed

B- is not so great,
hence i have too work very2 hard for my final semester(ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!)

for the time being,
my schedule is very weird and busy...
this evening i'll have dance preactice and
i'll be going to Melaka tomorrow to Naguib's house for over the weekend,
and plus i still haven't even start writing my report and i've to submit it on Monday...

then on Tuesday,
i'll be going back to JB and will be right back in Kl on the following saturday,
and in JB i have to do my costume for the play on 1 August.

after that,
i'll be in KL for 2 weeks of rotation,
and then going back to JB again for GP posting in Kg Pasir for a week,
and 1 whole week for a holiday,
which all the boys are planning to go to Langkawi...
guys Langkawi, does is ring any bell?
But, i'm not sure whether i'm going or not...
it will all depends on the budget...
but, personally i think i should go, because i never been to Langkawi before,
plus........
huhuhu, sorry terBitch!

And last but not least,
i'll be starting my 5th sem, which is my last sem here,
before i say good by
to family, freinds and lovers! (bitch lagi!)
and InsyaAllah,
i'll further my study abroad,
and only Allah knows where.....

Commitment, something hard to get...

2008-07-17T08:20:00.005+08:00

Commitment...
1 the state or quality of being dedicated to a cause or policy. Ø a pledge or undertaking.
2 an engagement or obligation that restricts freedom of action.
(ref: concise oxford dictionary)

pada pendapat diri yang hina ini,
commitment ni memang senang nak bagi,
tapi susah nak dapat.

contohnya semalam,
ada drama practice,
dah tanya dah pada isnin hari tu,
sapa yg boleh dtg and sapa yg tidak,
and hampir kesemua kata boleh dtg...
since hampir keemua blh hadir,
tuan director pun kata dia akan buat practice dgn extra semua.

dan saya rasa korang semua boleh teka kan apa yg terjadi!
kalo uols teka tak ramai yg dtg, mmg anda bijak!
kalo yg tak dtg tu semua watak picisan tak per,
ni semua watak utama kot.
ada yg keluar lah,
ada yg lupa lah,
yg berkira pun ada...
so, tak jadi lah practice the whole play,
and kita org practice tarian jah...

tu yg tak dtg,
yg lambat mmg tok sah cakaplah,
mmg every time practice start pkl 8, 8.30 baru ada yg sampai,
tak ke tension tu!
aku tak lah kata aku bagus,
tapi agak2 lah,
aku lepas sembahyang maghrib boleh jar terus pergi.

kalo alasan nak belajar tu mmg tak leh terima
aku nak belajar jugak,
lagilah aku ada report nak kena buat,
and tak start lagi,
lepas tu esok ada test yg hari ni baru nak start buka balik lectures tu,

sepanjang hidup aku,
kalo ada apa2 events and practice,
mmg ni selalu terjadi,
so korang,
kalo aku kata org melayu susah nak bagi commitment, selfish, tak punctual
jgn lah marah pulak
sebab mmg betul
korang semua mcm tu....

and dah lah masa event ni nanti clashes dgn KLWMBC,
aku tak beli tiket lagi sebab takut tak dapat pergi,
and i'm sure yg korang tahu,
yg aku ni suka sgt tgk band especially life performance,
kalo aku boleh tak pergi event yg setahun sekali ni,
kenapa org sanggup tak dtg practice tu yg sekejap jah,
and pergi main futsal yg mmg tiap2 minggu korang akan main!
GERAM!!!!

Buang Masa ATau Tidak...

2008-07-15T18:19:00.003+08:00

Hari, kena pergi IMR,
korang tau tak apa tu IMR,
iols pun tak tau sebenarnya,
tapi dah pergi tau lah!
IMR tu ialah Institute of Medical Research,
sebelah GHKL jah...
dah lah bus driver tu sesat,
sesuka hati jer dia bawa weols pergi Institut Perubatan Respiratori.

Anyway,
visit ni tak compulsory pun,
tapi haruslah org2 yg rajin mcm iols ni pergi kan!
so, kat sana org kat sana explained lah mcm mana dia org buat HLA typing and PCR,
which is important in organ tranplant.

Sepatutnya,
lepas tu balik semula ke bukit jalil,
tapi iols ikut housemate iols ni pergi times square boleh!
katanya nak jalan2 jah,
sampai sana,
hmmm, jumpa lagi bebeudak imu yg baru sampai,
teruslah weols semua main bowling, 4 games lagi
hahaha...

iols pun tak tau kenapa iols main bowling..
nak kata sebab dia, tak juga...
hmmmm
apalah nak jadi....

so, uols rasa,
iols buang masa ke tak?>
especially bila ada report yg kena submit before 21 July
and a test this Friday.
Buang masa tak?

The Perfect Plot...

2008-07-11T17:58:00.003+08:00

10 July is Naguib's birthday,
Farhat and I already planed something to surprise him,
but we just haven't finalized the date to implement our plan
and suddenly, on Tuesday Asyraf call and told me his plan,
and what a coincidence, we had been thinking about something similar,
which complement each other's idea and result as our
Perfect Plot!!!

So, Asyraf gave me Naguib's house key on Wednesday around 3.30pm,
which just in time after i came back from carefour shopping for my pudding.
I was so excited when Asyraf called me on Tuesday and made me forgot that i have drama practice that Wednesday night.
I don't want to disappoint both parties, so i went for both
drama practice for an hour and then directly to Taman Melati....

I arrived at Naguib's place around 10.15pm,
and while waiting for Farhat, suddenly i'm hungry,
so i called him and ask him to but me something to eat, huhu...
few minutes after that, i received sms from Asyraf, saying that they on their way back,
because Naguib is sleepy already....Ayam betul!
So, i forward the sms to Farhat and reply to Asyraf 'suruh bawa Naguib pusing dulu'.

Bila Farhat sampai,
apalah lagi, terus lah 'merompak' rumah tu!
So, i selerakkan lah semua kusyen, sorrokan tv, dvd player, lap top, kasut, and beg.
semua dvd ditaburkan atas lantai, kerusi meja makan di jatuhkan,
lampu disengetkan, dan majalah juga bertaburan atas lantai,
and the result was perfect,
seriously nampak mcm kena rompak,
walaupun ada juga yg nampak mcm tersusun, boleh?

Masa Farhat sampai tu,
dia suggest yg kita org ni tunggu dlm bilik,
tutup pintu and lampu, pasang lilin and ready with the cake
which Asyraf dah sorokkan.
saya sgt excited!

So, dah siap semua benda,
tinggal tunggu sms dari Asyraf jah!
Masa Asyraf sms kata dah sampai kat Taman Melati,
kita org ingat dah sampai,
so kita org buka pintu and grill,
and terus berkejaran masuk dlm bilik,
terus nyalakan lilin.
tunggu2 tak sampai2 lagi,
kita org pun pelik, and rasanya dah terdengar Naguib batuk tadi,
lilin kat kek dah mula memendek, nak padam takut tak sempat pulak nak nyalakan balik,
Then kita org decide, padam je lah dulu.

Few minutes lepas tu nyalakan balik sebab Farhat nampak kereta Ayraf,
Kita org kat dlm bilik ni sungguh excited,
tak sabar nak nyanyi lagu Happy birthday ni!
Masa Naguib masuk tu, adalah dengar suara dia sikit2..
antaranya dia kata
dia confirm dah kunci rumah sebelum keluar tadi...
lap top dah tak der...
Apa pun kita org sgt geram kat dlm tu,
dia tak buka2 pintu bilik tu,

Naguib buka pintu bilik tu dgn perlahan(takut katanya)
and
Surprise!!!!!!

hehehe....
terkezut Mak Ayam tu!
hahahaha....

Heart Transplant...

2008-07-09T01:01:00.002+08:00

saya dah tak tahan lagi,
jantung saya ni asyik berkecamuk je,
blh tak kalo saya nak buat heart transplant,
saya tak nak rasa lagi,
kalo buat transplant rasa tak?

Arus...

2008-07-07T13:26:00.003+08:00

Sungai mengalir ada arusnya,

Dari hulu ke hilir,

Dan alirannya sungguh sempurna,

Menuju hanya satu titik akhir,

Dimana ianya berpadu bersama lautan.

Manusia juga sama,

Punya arus kehidupan,

Tak kira apa bangsa dan kaum,

kita semua mempunyai hulu dan hilir yang sama,

Di jadikan oleh Tuhan yang sama,

Dan hanya kepadaNya kita akan kembali.

Sebagai Muslim,

Arus kehidupan kita telah ditetapkan Islam,

Islam memberi tata cara hidup yang sungguh sempurna,

Dan terpulang kepada kita untuk mengindah dan memvariasikannya.

Namun begitu,

Ramai di antara kita masih mahu menongkah arus,

Menentang kebaikan dan memilih keburukan,

Keburukan yang diperlihatkan seperti keindahan abadi.

Tidak dinafikan,

manusia melakukan kesilapan,

dan tidak terkecuali saya.

Kehidupan 'menongkah arus'

sememangnya indah,

tiap kali berada diarus yg betul,

pasti ada masa dan ketikanya kita melawan arus,

walaupun kita tahu itu salah,

tapi masih kita lakukan.

Kesilapan yang dilakukan,

Punyai tujuan,
untuk diperbetulkan,

untuk di insafi,

dan diakhiri dgn Taubat kepadaNya,

Taubat yang sebenar-benarnya.

Kan SENANG....

2008-07-05T00:18:00.002+08:00

kan senang kalo semua org dalam dunia ni jujur,
mengaku je kalo dah buat salah,
ni tak,
berlapis-lapis alasan yg di beri,
kalo nak buat novel,
kalah harry potter punya series.

tapi kita ni semua manusia biasa,
mmg tak lari dari melakukan kesilapan,
tapi,
agak2 lah kan nak buat silap tu,
kalo asyik buat jer,
bosan jugak kan?
huhuhu....

Thursday, 3rd July 2008

2008-07-03T14:51:00.004+08:00

If i have a camera right now,

i would capture a picture of the library,

it's not as it use to be,

pack with people studying for their exam,

but not today,

today the library is emtpy,

and there are only few students at the moment.

Sem 1 students are having their semester break,

same goes to sem 2 and sem 3 students,

and soon,

the semester 5 will be living IMU,

as today is their last exam,

and of course me,

and a bunch of my friends will be replacing them.

Thinking of that,

i must be prepared,

i must be strong,

i must be brave,

to face my mysterious future,

and where ever i will be,

i'll remember this day,

as a quite, slow moving day,

where the sun doesn't shine as bright as yesterday,

where i'm alone,

in this freezing library.

Hatinya Bukan Untukku...

2008-07-02T17:55:00.006+08:00

Beratnya mata memandang,

berat lagi hati menerima,
bila melihat Dia
bermadu asmara dengannya.

Tiada kata yang mampu diucap,
hanya air mata yang terdaya mengalir,
menyambut kesedihan yang bertandang,
mengubat luka yang kian parah.

Sungguhpun ku tahu,
mengejar angin tiada gunanya,
bertepuk sebelah tangan tiada bunyinya,
namun cinta ini hadir tidak ku undang,
menusup perlahan,
menyubur hati,
berbunga jiwa,
membawa diri ke alam fantasi,
di mana bahagia mula terasa,

Apa yang datang ada perginya,
apa yang mula ada akhirnya,
dan mungkin telah tiba masanya,
untuk ku membenarkan cinta yang datang ini pergi,
pergi meninggalkan ku,
sepi keseorangan,
untuk ku menerima kenyataan,
bahawa
Hatinya Bukan Untukku...

Matahari yg Terik...

2008-07-02T17:38:00.003+08:00

Hari ini saya perasan,
Hari sgt panas,
sinaran mentari menusuk,
tiada tertahan

teriknya matahari,
membakar,
meluntur jiwa

voteband

2008-07-02T09:50:00.004+08:00

saya check kat voteband
event calender,
katanya klwmbc start 30 july sampai 1 august,
dan saya tak check pula kat klwmbc punya website...
and baru jer sekejap tadi tgk kat website ni,
klwmbc start on 30 july and end 3 august....
so, semuanya salah voteband!
huhuhu...
nampaknya, bolehlah saya meronggeng!

Maaf, saya Tak Perasan...

2008-07-01T07:06:00.005+08:00

I want to apologize to all my friends,
especially Naguib and Farhat,
because i won't be able to join u guys for 2008 KLWMBC.

IMU will be having it Malay Cultural Week
from 28.7.08 to 1.8.08,
and the peak event will be on the last day, night.
So, i wont be able to join u guys for the final,
and i'll try to go for the national and preliminary round.

I know it's totally my fault...
and i hope my apology is accepted...
sooorrryy...

HaRi InI...

2008-06-30T09:31:00.003+08:00

Subuh yang dingin,
Sejuknya sungguh menyaman kan,
Membuat hamba duduk terdiam,
Memikirkan KebesaranNya,
Walaupun pendek waktunya,
Namun sungguh berguna jika dimanfaatkan.

Mentari yang bersinar mula menggantikan subuhku,
Cahaya jingga di langit yang gelap,
Sudah mampu menghangatkan kedinginan subuh,
Peralihan Subuh ke siang hari,
Sungguh sempurna dalam waktu yg singkat,
Bangunlah, sedarlah, Cubalah,
Hayati waktu singkat yang panjang ini.

Bila cahaya yang terang terus menyinar,
Apa yang kabur mula menjadi jelas,
Burung-burung mula berkicau,
berterbangan bebas di langit biru yg luas,
Kedamaian yang di rasa membawa semangat baru,
Namun hari yang baru bermula,
Sentiasa penuh dengan misteri,
Hanya harapan dapat di zahirkan,
Agar hari ini berakhir seindah permulaanya.

Kau Ada Dia...

2008-06-28T11:19:00.001+08:00

Sudah lama ku memendam rasa

Cinta di dalam dada
Namun tidak pernah bersuara
Kerana takut kecewa

Ku tunggu waktu yang lebih baik
Untuk langkah pertama
Jauh dari apa yang ku kira
Hatimu ada yang punya

Di dalam mimpi kita berdua
Mesra bersama dilamun cinta
Oh tetapi kenyataannya aku sedar kau ada dia

Mungkin juga semuanya salah ku
Terlalu mengharapkan cinta
Tapi sepi yang merasuk kalbu
Membawa angan melayang

Di dalam mimpi kita berdua
Mesra bersama dilamun cinta
Oh tetapi kenyataannya aku sedar kau ada dia.

Sepi...

2008-06-27T23:47:00.005+08:00

Bisikku pada bulan,
Kembalikan temanku,
Kekasihku, Syurgaku.

Tanpa dia malam menemaniku,
Sepi memelukku

Bulan jangan biar siang biar alam ini kelam,
Biar ia sepi
Sepertiku....

Exam dah habis,
so saya me'limit'kan masa saya untuk berhibur hanya hujung minggu ni sahaja
the next week,
kenalah focus kembali as the EOS 5 is approaching,
and i can say, it approaching fast.

Anyway,
AS the exam for sem 4 is over,
we all pun buat lah rombongan ke Mines utk tengok movie.
Tadi ada 2 group tadi,
satu group tgk SEPI, and the other tgk WANTED(whatever gila!)

Hmmm....
semua org mempunyai pandangan yang berbeza terhadap sesuatu cerita,
dan saya berpendapat,
SEPI ni korang patut tgh,
bukan wajib ya, tapi patut.
Apa2 pun, cerita sgt menyentuh hati dan perasaan saya,
dan sesungguhnya saya TAK MALU utk mengaku,
yang saya MENANGIS tgk cerita ni,
sebab pada saya,
ada part2 dan scene2 yg sangat menyentuh perasaan saya!

Walaupun saya tahu ramai org Malaysia tak suka tgk cerita mcm ni,
as for example, wayang tadi pun kosong sebenarnya,
huhuhu...
Tapi saya rasa cerita ni sgt menarik!
Mungkin sebab kena dgn Jiwa saya yg kadang2 ting-tong sikit ni
huhuhu....

Dikala Kebosanan....

2008-06-24T11:33:00.003+08:00

Hmmm...
Agak-agaknya, kalo uols bosan uols buat apa?
Ataupun tgh tension2 study ker kerja ke,
apa yang uols akan buat?

Kadang2, iols buat bodoh jah,
malas nak layan kan,
tapi tetiba jah hari tu masa tgh malas2, tension2 ni
ada surat kahabar kat sebelah i,
apa lagi terus di gapai lah surat khabar tu!

uols mesti ingat iols baca surat khabar tu kan!
Tgk result euro 2008 lah kata kan!
Hah, tak der makna nya iols kisah pasal BOLA ni lagi,
huhuhu...

Anyway, iols tak baca pun paper tu,
iols main conteng2 gambo model dlm paper tu,
just menzahirkan bakat yg terpendam sekian lama,
berbekal kan magic colour yg sentiasa ada dlm pencil case iols,
'cantik' model tu iols kerjakan!
huhuhu....

hah, cantik kan model ni iols kerjakan,
iols ubah segala, muka jah tak!

sURreNdEr....

2008-06-23T13:03:00.004+08:00

TIRED...
ALONE...
LOSS CONFIDENCE...
LOW SELF ESTEEM...
BAD TIME MANAGEMENT...
ALWAYS BEEN DEFEATED BY...

RUN AWAY...
HIDING...
SURRENDER...
AND VICTORIOUS DEFEAT...
WELL DONE!

FIGHT, FIGHT AND FIGHT!

Bila Hati Berbisik...

2008-06-23T00:32:00.005+08:00

Bila Hati Berbisik,
Khayalan diminda berbunga,
Melayari alam fantasi,
Di mana semuanya kelihatan indah dan sempurna

Bila Hati Berbisik,
Aku mula merasai sesuatu,
Satu perasaan,
Perasaan yang sepatutnya sudah lenyap.

Bila Hati Berbisik,
Aku mula takut,
Takut kehilangan diri ku lagi,
Sesat di alam Fantasi yang 'sempurna' itu

Bila Hati Berbisik,
Aku mula risau,
Risau dgn perbuatan diri,
Betul atau pun tidak

Bila Hati Berbisik,
Kesedihan melanda,
Kesedihan yang tidak sepatutnya dirasai,
Bergetar jelas dihati

Bila Hati Berbisik,
membuatkan aku resah,
mencetekkan minda,
membutakan mata.

Empty entry, as empty as my heart at the moment

2008-06-21T22:45:00.002+08:00

kejap!....

2008-06-19T11:08:00.000+08:00

korang korang,
tak lah teruk sgt masakan saya hari ni
ok jah,
tak seteruk yang disangka!
haahahah.....

Opai Yang LemBAP....

2008-06-19T10:00:00.002+08:00

eXAM minggu depan,
tapi tak habis cover semua benda lagi...
tak pe lah,
mcm dah tahu jer out come dia apa!
huhuhu...

Anyway
Hari Ni turn saya memasak,
dan saya memang lembap sgt bab2 memasak ni...
saya start potong2 bawang and siap2 kan bahan2 around pukul 7.30 pagi tadi,
and sekarang ni, around pukul 10.00 pagi baru selesai memasak!
lembap kan tu, 2 jam 30 minit memasak 2 lauk...
lembap, lembap....

HARI ni saya masak sambil tumis ayam,
dan sentiasa tak jadi lah kalau saya masak sambal umis ni,
tAK tahu lah mana silap nya,
huhuhu....

lepas masak sambal tumis,
masak sayur pulak....
kalo nak diikutkan, sayurlah antara makanan yang paling saya tak gemar,
tapi yang peliknya,
saya suka and enjoy memasak sayur...
and hari ni buat sayur sawi goreng jah!
dan untuk memasak sayur ni, saya memang suka memandai-mandai buat resepi sendiri...
tapi kalo malas, saya campak jer apa2,
huhuhu....
and sayur hari ni nampak mcm menyelerakan,
dan selalunya mcm tu,
rupa jah cantik, tapi rasa hampeh!
huhuhuhu....

oklah, saya yang lembap ni nak gosok baju(antara benda yang tak suka dlm dunia ni),
mandi,
and pergi kelas,
belajar...

The MesSage, a sECoNd tOUcH

2008-06-13T00:00:00.003+08:00

In ages, letters were used widely as a vital medium of communication.
Letters, until today, bring news from far to us.
Owls and pigeons, among other animals, were kept by humans back then to commute letters to the intended recipients, just like Harry Potter in all its 5 sequels so far...=)

Letters bring a thousand tales, a thousand hopes then meet…

‘The waiting’ comes to a halt with a letter in hands…
it’s like a beautiful dream that makes you soar high that you wish it never ends.
All because of the waiting, the hope…

The present resolute the past…
Technology takes charge; email, chatting, instant messaging and many others.
As a consequence, letters become less significant.

Nevertheless, I still strongly feel, despite the fact that the ways of delivery have changed a lot, the feature of each message remains still, concrete and same, that is ‘the waiting’…

To all, this is merely a piece of my mind…
when I am chatting, I’ll be awaiting the second party’s reply, or the third…
although it’s hurting at times due to the unpleasant replies, but those replies speak, telling that I exist…
Of course I do exist, but you know the term ‘a living dead’???
'LIVE YOUR LIFE’, I said at the beginning of this blog, is an indication that the waiting, even though it overwhelms you over certain matters, life has to be livened to its fullest…

I hope this second version of ‘MESSAGE’ hits you all.

original idea by Opai,
Beautifully translated by Naguib, the best fren....

CinTa CoPy PaSTE...

2008-06-12T18:05:00.002+08:00

love is everywhere,
love is all around,
love is a gift,
love is for us all...

Tetapi kita selalu terlupa,
dan terlepas pandang
cinta yg paling hampir dengan kita.

love is sacred,
love is divine,
love is deep,
love is thorough..

Dan sememangnya cinta yg dekat itu
sangat suci,
dan kesucian itu tiada tandingan,
walaupun cinta antara adam dan hawa

love is precious,
yet can blind mankind,
love is a trust,
thus, to protect it is our task..

Cinta tidak membutakan kita,
Cuma kadang-kala ia mengelirukan kita,
kita sering terkeliru untuk memilih,
dan pilihan yang silap membuatkan kita 'jatuh cinta'
Dan apabila kita 'terjatuh' sememangnya sukar untuk berdiri lagi

Namun cinta yang sejati,
menyuluh jalan yang lurus,
memberi kekuatan untuk kita berdiri setelah jatuh,
Dan sememangnya cinta ini seharusnya di jaga and di suburkan lagi,
walaupun dengan setitis air mata.

so wide it can mean, for it is too abstract,
so precise it can be, for a special that we hunt,

so opai, who's ur love?

Keabstrakan cinta membuatkan aku keliru,
dan sememangnya kesakitan akibat terjatuh sangat perit,
Untuk pulih tidak ku ketahui bila,
namun,
harapan untuk berdiri dan berjalan tiada penghujungnya,
agar sinar cinta yang menyuluh akan terus terang menyuluh jalan ku...

Dalam keadaan yang 'sakit'
sememangnya sukar untuk menjawab soalan yang mudah itu,
cinta yang lama masih belum boleh aku lupai,
cinta yang dahulu sudah mula menapak,
dilema semakin jelas menghampiri,
dan semoga cinta yang lama bertukar menjadi kasih,
kasih sesama sahabat,
agar cinta yang dahulu kembang dan mekar,
mengharumi hidupku ini...

Special thanks for 2nd trumpet section leader,
kerana membuat saya duduk,
dan berfikir.....

Busy June...

2008-06-11T00:08:00.004+08:00

My Busy June...
My brain start to be crazy again...
When my heart is playing again with me...

What an introduction...
huhuhu...

Anyway, i went for circumcision class last Saturday at CUCMS, Cyberjaya,
It's a tiring day but it was a good experience,
other than meeting NEW PEOPLE, i learned something new!
The class start at 8.00 AM, so we all departed from IMU around 7.30 AM
The whole program was separated into 3 session, theory, practical practice session and of course test!
Anyway, i really enjoyed my time here,
want to know why?
Rahsia....

So, we all finished around 6.00 pm,
and they all decided to go to 'pasar malam' at Sg Besi to buy their dinner.
So, i ikut Jah!
Anyway, there was a Small Big plan for farhat that night actually...

Farhat birthday is on 5th June, and since everyone kind of busy that day especially me, we couldn't celebrate his bday on that day,
So, Naguib and I planned to bring Farhat for MPO concert on 11.06.08, bUT unfortunately, he wouldn't be free that evening....

So, we secretly plan something simple for him,
sO, on the same day, VICCB was having their full dress rehearsal for the up coming KL Band competition.
So, i obviously couldn't go for that rehearsal....
So, after got back from 'pasar malam', without a second delay, i make my way to Sri Petaling, ON FOOT!
withdraw money and hurried my self to look for a bakery shop and luckily there is many here!
So, after bought that cake, i straight away to the 'kedai makan' to hide the cake.
And a few meters away from the guards house, farhat Called and mentioned that they will be arriving in 15 mins, so malas nak naik rumah, lepak jer kat surau,
lagi pun ak solat Isyak lagi, huhuhu....

When they arrived, we alls terus ke kedai mkn tu,
so, semua org berlakon lah kan like nothing gonna happen that night,
we ordered our food, we eat and suddenly i got SMS,
'bila nak keluar kan cake, it's about time'
So, i jumpa lah abg tu, konon2 nya mintak list lagu nak karaoke ni,
tup tup tup, ada org nyanyi lagu happy bday,
Hah, apa lagi, terkejut lah 'Farhat the dott' TU...

huhuhu....
Apa lagi...
mLM TU, semua org pun tunjukkan lah bakat menyanyi kan!

Wah, mcm tak bertepatan dgn tajuk pun!!!!

Well, anyway...
what i'm trying to say that,
june is a very busy month for me...
since the ICA, WHICH IS A TEST will be on JUne 27,
so, definitely i'll be busy revising my study and not updating my blog!
huhu...
and this saturday, there is KL comp...
isn't that busy?
busy kan?

LeTs TaLk aBOut LoVE...

2008-06-05T23:12:00.002+08:00

LOVE is universal,
u can love almost everything and everyone in this world,
Love is something u must give before u can get one,
and LOVE is so pure that someone can't life without it,
especially LOVE from HIM...
so, lets talk about LOVE....

Everywhere I go all the places that I’ve been
Every smile is a new horizon on a land I’ve never seen
There are people around the world - different faces different names
But there's one true emotion that reminds me we're the same...
Let's talk about love

From the laughter of a child to the tears of a grown man
There's a thread that runs right through us all and helps us understand
As subtle as a breeze - that fans a flicker to a flame
From the very first sweet melody to the very last refrain...

Let's talk about love
Let's talk about us
Let's talk about life
Let's talk about trust
Let's talk about love

It's the king of all who live and the queen of good hearts
It's the ace you may keep up your sleeve - ‘til the name is all but lost
As deep as any sea - with the rage of any storm
But as gentle as a falling leaf on any autumn morn...

Let's talk about love - it's all were needin'
Let's talk about us - it's the air we're breathin'
Let's talk about life - I wanna know you
Let's talk about trust - and I wanna show you
Let's talk about love...

mEssaAge...

2008-06-02T01:00:00.003+08:00

Kalau zaman dulu, surat menjadi penghubung...
Suratlah yg membawa perkhabaran berita terutamanya dari jauh...
Surat membawa seribu cerita, bertemu seribu harapan...

Penantian berakhir dgn seutus surat ditangan...
Bagaikan sebuah mimpi indah yg tidak mahu diakhiri...
Kerana penantian, Kerana harapan...

Zaman berganti zaman,
Ramai yg sudah melupakan kehadiran surat...
Ramai yg menggunakan teknologi baru...
email, chatting dan pelbagai lagi...

Walaupun begitu,
saya masih merasai bahawa,
walaubagaimanapun cara penghantarannya berubah,
namun ciri2 sesebuah pesanan dan khabar berita itu
masih kekal.....
iaitu penantian...

Ini hanyalah pendapat,
kalo saya berchatting pun,
saya masih ternanti2 reply pihak kedua, mahupun ketiga....
walaupun kadang-kala reply itu tidak 'memuaskan hati'
namun reply pada saya sudah cukup membuktikan
kewujudan diri yang hina ini...

sampai ke apa yang nak disampaikan ni?
huhuhuhuhu......

Graduation Day...

2008-06-01T21:57:00.003+08:00

Hari Khamis yg lepas, berlangsunglah sudah 'Graduation Day' di UiTM Shah Alam.Yang tak bestnya, it' s not my graduation day!!!It was my sister graduation day...

Eventhough hari khamis tu i ada kelas, tapi sebab nak interframe dlm gambar kan, i kena lah pergi, huhuhuhuhu....
kita org stay kat rumah uncle Mad, sebab his house closer to UiTM, and of coures pagi tu, mak and abah pergi dulu....kita org ni masih tertonggeng-tonggeng dlm bilik kan tak bangun lagi tido!
anyway, around pkl 10 pagi tu kita org bertolak ke UiTM...
Kita org sepatutnya tumpang Syakir, tapi disebabkan masing2 baru nak bersiap kan, so kena lah tinggal....so, Anna drive lah ke sana....
Zhafir, mula2 kena tinggal, Syakir suruh belajar, tapi Tok Mak Suruh ikut, so kami berempat lah ke sana!

Sampai kat sana, of course lah kan kena mencari parking kereta yang kelihatan begitu mustahil...
Atas khidmat nasihat Zhafir kita org parking kat tempat parking lecturer....yaQin kan?
lepas tu, adalah pak cik ni sound...mula2 dia cakap mcm baik, lepas tu mcm nak marah pulak..hmmmm, Male Irritable Syndrome kot! huhuhu...

Last2 kita org parking kat Pusat Islam(kalo tak silap lah)
so, kita org pun pergilah ke dewan.....
kalo kereta dah banyak, org mesti lagi banyak kan!
memang pun, mcm semut, huhuhu

sampai2, kita org terus lah pergi beli bunga nak bagi akak...

so, dah pusing2 kita org pun beli lah bunga and dok minum kat cafe dekat2 menara tu...
baru jer nak minum abah call kata akak dah nak keluar...
tergopoh-gopoh lah tulis card kat bunga tu...selamat chantique! huhuhu...

kita org pun tunggulah kat luar dewan tu....
tunggu2 tak keluar lagi...rupanya dia org ada taklimat lagi dlm tu....
so, bila dah habis, dia org pun keluar...
i pulak yg excited....
tunggu lagi ni..
kakak i tak nampak lagi...sampai lah org habis keluar, tak de jugak...
so, kita org decided to minum dulu...
lepas tu jumpa dia kat sana, boleh?
rupanya, banyak pintu yg terbuka utk dia org keluar
kita org ingat dia org kena lalu red carpet!

dah minum tu, apa lagi....photo shoot lah!
huhuhu...

Cinta, Kasih dan Sayang...

2008-05-31T00:44:00.003+08:00

Naufal ni tak habis2 cerita pasal benda yang sama....
cinta, cinta, cinta,
Tak Der cerita lain ke nak cerita?
Mat jiwang ke dia ni?
ke masih tak boleh nak move on lagi?
common lah naufal,
don't keep dragging your old memory again,
let it be your past,
and you should live for your future........

Hmmmmm....
suka hatilah korang nak cakap apa pun,
aku nak berdrama jugak,
ingat zharif sorang jer boleh?
i boleh jugak!
huhuhu....
Jgn marah zharif....

Sebelum saya merepek yang bukan2 lagi,
entry kali ni bukanlah untuk saya berdrama atau pun mengimbau kisah 'silam' itu,
tetapi apa yang hendak disampaikan
hanyalah luahan hati dan perasaan...

Cinta, kasih dan sayang tu boleh dtg dari pelbagai sumber,
Ianya boleh datang dari ibu bapa, keluarga, rakan2 dan juga kekasih hati.

Kebanyakan org yg sedang hangat bercinta terlepas pandang kasih sayang yg berada di sekelilingnya,
apa yg mereka lihat dan rasa, hanyalah cinta, kasih dan sayang yg diluah dan diucapkan oleh kekasih mereka.
Mereka seakan-akan lupa tentang kehidupan yg bernafas di sekeliling mereka.
Mungkin, inilah yg dikatakan mabuk bercinta!

Ada sesetangah org, bila perhubungan ini berakhir,
barulah mereka sedar bahawa kasih sayang mereka yg berada disekeliling lah, yg membuat mereka mampu untuk berdiri.
Tetapi malang sekali kepada mereka yg masih buta dan tuli utk merasai perasaan ini.
Biarlah cinta itu tamat, berhenti, tetapi jgn sesekali biarkan perasaan sedih dan marah mengaburi minda yg waras.

Lihatlah sekeliling, dunia ini sgt luas...
Perhatikan, dengarkan, dan fahamkan nasihat yang cuba disampaikan,
samaada melalui kata-kata, mahu pun tingkah laku.
Jgn lah sombong dan berfikiran cetek apabila di tegur,
Jgn lah melenting apabila di nasihati,
kerana teguran dan nasihat ini bukti kasih dan sayang,
walaupun ianya datang dari seorg sahabat.

Sekali lagi,
Perhatikan sekeliling mu, Dengarkan bisikannya, dan fahamilah kata2 nya...
dan sesungguhnya, cinta yang kekal abadi hanyalah cinta Allah ...

MaSaLaH....!

2008-05-27T23:35:00.002+08:00

Masalah, Masalah....

Macam2 masalah ada dlm dunia ni, memang banyak!
Nak list kan? Tak perlu kot, huhuhu...

MASALAH saya sekarang, tak boleh nak duduk senang-lenang kat rumah...
kenapa? Hmmm, personal lah, mcm tak blh post kat blog ni...
Kalau I post, nanti Zharif akan kata saya berdrama,
Naguib akan cakap it's unnecessary things,
so, biarlah rahsia...

Susah betul transition period ni,
Macam2 benda berlaku,
is it the wrong timing for me to transit?

well, i don't think so,
the timing is alway right, because 2nd chance is not always guaranteed
it's just that i need some time, more time, more and more time to 'fix' myself

Nak melarikan diri?
sampai bila?
bukan ke itu mcm melarikan diri daripada masalah?
Habis tu, mcm mana?

Kalo tak melarikan diri, hari-hari lah saya 'jumpa' masalah tu....
nak 'face the problem' saya tak tahu mcm mana...
nak berterus terang?
ohhhhh, tidak, tidak mungkin sama sekali...
consequences dia mcm sgt teruk...

tapi, i tak cuba lagi,
mcm mana i tahu consequences dia buruk?
or is it i just to be brave and buat bodoh jer dgn consequences nya?

Hmmm, tak tahu lah nak,
pak cik pun bingung ni...
tak tahu nak nasihakan apa...

Hmmm, i tak kisah sgt kalo masalah ni tak mengganggu study
tapi, lately mcm dragging pulak,
well, i tak tau lah i ni exaggerate ke tak,
or is it this problem or other problem yg make me hilang focus...

Pak Cik Betul2 tak tahu....

Wah, Lamanya.......

2008-05-27T22:48:00.002+08:00

Wah, lamanya saya tak up-date blog ni.

Bukannya tak der benda yg nak dipost, banyak sebenarnya.....
Nak kata busy, tak jugak, meronggeng jer memanjang,
Nak kata study, hmmm...mcm tak jugak,
senang cerita, malaslah,
huhuhuhu....

So, here i would summarized what happened in previous weeks.....

Pada 16.05.08 saya balik JB, sebab apa? Sebab saya masuk NST JB Walker Hunt 2008, and thanks to Nizam, Aidil, and Farhat sebab sudi ajak i menyertai pertandingan yang best ni! HUHUUHUHU.....kelakarkan!
So, nak tahu more info about this, feel free to rujuk aidil punya blog, Revelina reveal ya!
So, monday tu cuti sebab wesak day, so saya decided to go back to KL on Tuesday, walaupun PBL tak siap lagi, huhuhu....

Apa lagi ek!

Saya menjalani hari2 yg sama setiap hari, sengsara??? tak sengsara sebenarnya, just ada sedikit pressure, plus tekanan (pressure=tekanan kan????), + emotional sikit, gila yg banyak, and gila lagilah, huhuhu.....

On Khamis tu, tak der kelas, so tengok movie dgn aZRAQ, tgk Narnia Dgn Indiana Jones, gilakan!

Malam tu, pi tido rumah Naguib, and semestinya meronggenglah kat sana kan!
Ronggeng sampai hari sabtu, tired but seriously worth it!
why? huhuhuhu......

So, sepanjang minggu ni, the cycle start again lah, kelas, pbl, csu,.....kelas lagi.
Hmmmm, how can i brighten my life?
with boookss?

Just A Short Entry..

2008-05-07T21:57:00.003+08:00

Ku Berdoa agar tuhan memberikan kekuatan,
Untuk ku meneruskan hidup di Jalan yang baru,
Agar aku tidak menyimpang lagi,
Sesungguhnya amat berat dugaan ini.

Thanks Friends!

2008-05-07T18:14:00.004+08:00

I'm my not realized that my previous post was a little bit inappropriate for me in my current situation, but with help of my friends i do realized that!

Once again, thanks to Naguib and Farhat for make me see the irrelevant post that i posted on the previous days.

What they said are true.
I need to move on with my life,
I should see forward without thinking about the past,
I should believe with my choice,
without a single regret!

Thanks Friends!

(See, how important you all are in my life! We may live a different life, but we live in the same world. I'll always need you guys as always as before, because you all are among the best friends i ever had)

Bila Tiba Masanya.....

2008-04-29T21:25:00.003+08:00

Bila tiba masanya, Matahari akan terbit menggantikan Bulan,
Menerangi Alam dengan cahayanya yang terang,
Menghangatkan suasana selepas malam.

Bila tiba masanya, bunga akan mekar mengembang,
Menghiasi taman dengan pelbagai warna dan rupa,
Menarik perhatian sang rama-rama yang menambahkan lagi seri di taman,
Haruman yang mekar mewangi memikat sesiapa sahaja yang melewati.

Bila tiba masanya, Hujan akan turun,
Membasahi bumi yang gersang,
Menyuburkan tanah yang tandus,
Memberi harapan kepada hidupan.

Bila tiba masanya, seorang bayi akan dewasa,
Mempunyai kehidupan sendiri,
Mengharungi hari yang mencabar sendiri,
Tanpa bantuan Ibu dan Bapa.

Dan Bila tiba masanya,
Kematian itu pasti,
Begitu juga dengan Hari Kiamat,
Dimana bumi yang indah ini akan musnah,
Dan tiada siapa pun akan terselamat daripada kebinasaan itu.

Dan mungkin, telah tiba masanya,
Untuk Aku melakukan penhijrahan ini,
Kembali di atas jalan yang benar,
Untuk merasai cinta yang satu.

Ku tahu, bukan mudah,
sudah ku saksikan dan rasakan ujian yang hebat,
Namun harus ku gagah kan diri, Tabahkan hati,
Kerana jalan ini telah ku pilih,
Dan aku yakin segala kekuatan akan ku perolehi,
Melalui KasihNya, Tuhan yang esa.

Ku mohon dan ku harap,
Agar sahabat sekalian memahami dan mengerti,
Biarpun Jalanku berubah,
Namun Naufal tetap Naufal,
Dan ku harapkan sokongan,
kerana luka masih dalam,
dan hanya masa yang boleh mengubatinya.

Back To The Origin....

2008-04-27T18:14:00.005+08:00

-sorrylah gambo tak clear-

'Back to The Origin' is a camping trip organized by the IMU's Muslim Society or M'Soc for short.It was held in Rebutia Camping site, in Gombak and seriously i can't believe my self joining this camping!!!

We left IMU around 5.30pm (which supposed to be at 5.00 pm) on 25.4.08 which is last Friday. According to the program's tentative, we should be arriving around 6 but because of the heavy traffic that day we arrived quite late, around 6.45 pm.

Many of us went for the evening bath before maghrib prayer, but not me, hehehe.
The reason is that, i usually take all my time in the bathroom and since the toilet was so crowded, i can't barely breath in there that evening. So, i just washed my face and took my Wuduk' there.

Then we went for Maghrib Prayer and guess what, i been chosen to 'azan' that evening. Oh My God! Seriously it's the first time i azan after a longggggggg time ago in sekolah agama! Lamakan?!!!
huhuhu....

As for the night, we had dinner after maghrib and an opening speech by Wong and Hakim, Adam sekali kot. After isyak prayer we proceed with ice breaking session. The target for the camping is to know the junior better, but there were only 2 boys junior who joined the camp, so the ice breaking session is quite kelakar since almost every one knows one and another.
We all sleep around 11.00 kot! because we have the Qiamullail the next subuh!

The next day tu, pagi2 Qiammullail, subuh and breakfast kot!
During the morning, we have the LDK session, ok lah with thw campak kera and all, plus kisah che naz bersaudara semua...huhuhu

Then, we all ada war game with the theme 'patuh kepada ketua' and ramai org tak puas hati pasal game ni especialy boys! huhuhu...

Later in the morning ada jungle tracking which originally it wasn't in the planned. The path and the journey to the Sungai Pisang was fun except the part when we all been 'forced' to 'merendam dlm lumpur yg coklat tue'. There's go my new shoe! huhuhu...

-kat air terjun sungai pisang-

After returned from the jungle tracking tu, mestilah i clean my self, zohor and then lunch( tak ingat jugak mana satu sequence nya). Then we had our 2nd LDK, which i like the 2nd part of it where everyone is given a paper with other people name and everyone take turn to write first impression of the person, his good deed and his bad attitude. Majority of the people there got 3 papers and i ot only 1, tak syok betul!

After Asar, we had a slaughtering sessions, and of course i didn't slaughter the chickens, takutlah!
So, i just mentibuk-nyibuk jer from place to place, hehehehe...we have our dinner after Isyak plus the performances from the groups.

Later during the night, ada night walk. We were blind folded and ask to walk in the bushes with only holding a rope as a guide and there were 4 checkpoints if i'm not mistaken! since many of the facilitator are our frenz, so ramai lah yg loyar buruk kan! plus the sound of muzik, seriously tak berapa takut sgt! my group was the first one to go and the first one to finish and we all sleep around 2 am, at least for the boys! huhuhu...

Yeah last day!!!!!!!!!!
well, pagi mcm biasalah kan and around 9.30 ada kuliah sikit from ustaz and seriously this talk open my eyes and widen my mind, and seriously it's touch my heart. And the most advise that very attached to me is that 'find your U turn before it's too late'!

then ada treasure hunt, some misunderstanding make the game boring!
then ada feedback session, resolution and balik

After Maghrib the same day,
i felt something odd in my heart and i don't know why suddenly i cried!

Mysterious Heart...

2008-04-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

Heart is really mysterious organ in human body despite of it's fantastical function pumping the blood through out our body.

It become more mysterious when we talking about LOVE

LOVE is mystery because sometimes we have to keep it as a secret, that only God and us know.
May be many of you all wondering why LOVE should be kept as a secret when it's feel great when we can share it with the special someone.

Given in a situation that the society can't accept this LOVE, where that special someone will definitely denied your LOVE; you might one to keep it only to your self.
For me, I would rather suffer keeping my LOVE to my self than losing the one i LOVE.
I would rather see my LOVE with someone else, when i know they will be better of f without me

I know it's sound stupid, but i choose that.
I don't want to lose a friend because of LOVE, I don't want to be hate because of LOVE, i don't her to suffer because of my LOVE.

Isn't that mysterious enough?
well, at least my heart is a mystery....

Perhentian Here I Come!-Part 3-

2008-03-28T15:37:00.003+08:00

-sunrise-

untuk org yg tido awal the day before sepatutnya bangunlah awal, tapi orang itu bukan saya....huhuhu. Kononnya nak bangun awal tengok sunrise tapi tak dapat lah nak melihat nya since pkl 7.00 baru keluar chalet, but anyway, terlindung pun matahari tue disebalik pulau yg lagi satu....

Hari ni menarik sikit aktiviti sebab pergi snorkeling, tapi sebelum tu kami menyediakan makanan utk dimakan di atas bot, bak kata Baang, nanti penat dan kelaparan, so banyak lah bekalan makanan dan minuman yg kami bawa. Tapi yg paling best sekali, kita org naik 2 bot yg berbeza and 1 bot bawa roti, 1 bot lagi bawa air, sgt tak balance kan!

-cuba teka mana saya-

lebih kurang pkl 11 tue, kami pun naik bot dan menuju ke destinasi pertama kami, kat sini banyak ikan yg comel2 and colourful, and kita org bagi ikan2 tue makan roti. It's my first time doing this and i'm really enjoy doing it!

dah puas kat sini, kami bergerak ke destinasi seterusnya, tempat penyu and nampaklah seekor penyu sedang melantak di dasar laut and sungguh tak ku sangka, gambar penyu yg kat dlm tv tu semuanya mcm tipu jer. Memang tak di nafikan penyu mempunyai cengkerang yg cantik, tapi kalo tak di bersihkan mestilah tak secantik dlm gambar kan!

next stop is shark's port, unfortunately( is it?) seekor pun tak kelihatan, by this time saya dah kesejukan tahap cipan yg tak tahan tue....

then we stop at kampung nelayan for lunch, tak tau lah berapa lama, tapi cukup lah untuk saya memanaskan badan yg kurang lemak nie!

dah makan, kita org stop pulak dkt fire house kat tgh laut tu, where we see very beautiful coral reef, of various size, colour and shape, mmg cantik gila. Ada yg besar, and just about few meter from water surface that can almost be touched, tapi sebab besar sgt saya sgt takut melihatnya. Kat sini jugak lah ramai bebudak jantan melepaskan hajat mereka, huhuhuhu!

dah cukup pusing 360 darjah kat situ, kita org stop break kat 1 of the beaches kat pulau tu...the sand is so soft there, sgt menarik, pantai nya pun cantik!

-sapa posing paling seksi?-

that beach was our last stop, and we get back to our beach around 5, and sapa yg tak sembahyang lagi, pergi sembahyang( saya lah tue, huhuhu). Pas tu mandi lagi kat pantai tue, and kemudiannya saya ditanam hidup2 kat pantai tue...huhuhu

dah puas semua org menanam saya, mandilah lepas tu, tak tahan miang! huhuhu

dinner mlm nie special sikit, ada BBQ. Tapi yg tak best nya, apa yg saya nak tak der, and di gantikan dgn ayam and yg paling best sekali my meal arrived when all people already done with their dinner! what a waste of time, tak best betul!

since it the last night kat sana, mlm tu tido lambat sikit...i jln2 di pantai bersama 5 lelaki yg lain.
best nya kalo dpt stay all night and meluahkan perasaaan pada seseorg kan!

Perhentian Here I Come!-Part 2-

2008-03-27T17:08:00.003+08:00

Sememangnya semua org excited tak sabo nak menjejakkan kaki kat Pulau tu. Tapi, before kita org naik bot kita org beli lunch dulu since everything is expensive kat pulau tu bak kata Baang, which is true!

kami naik bot tu around pkl 9.00 pagi rasanya, and naik bot tue adalah satu pengalaman yg sangat menyeronokkan (sorry lah if i'm sound so jakun! huhuhu, but seriously it was fun riding on that boat, better than riding a roller coaster)

mistake number that i did, wearing shoe to the island. Seriously pakai selipar cukops! sebelum turun tu kenalah i buka kasut tu dulu and selamat lah tak basah, kalo tak gila lah nak keringkan kasut pulak! lupa nak cerita pasal food supply yg melambak! saya tak tahu the exact quantity yg Baang dan rakan2 bawa, tapi sememangnya banyak plus 2 kotak mineral water rasanya, so penatlah nak mengangkut barang2 tue, dah lah saya ni kena bawa kettle!

Boys always be boys! can't believe i mentioned that, tapi seriously laut dan pantai kat pulau tu sgt menggoda, apa lagi mandi lah saya dan bebudak lelaki yg lain. Dah penat mandi, lepak lak kat pantai yg cantik tue yg sentiasa penuh dgn paus2 putih yg terdampar! pastu balik chalet mandi, lunch and solat sat.

selamat ambil gambo jer, kalo tak bising blog nie!
huhu, jgn marah Fir!

pas tu dok lagi kat tepi pantai tue, and tak tau lah sapa punya idea nak ke perkampungan nelayan, so berbondong-bondonglah kami bergerak kesana, without Azraq, Baang, and Mat Min yg masih tergilakan pantai tu!

mcm pelarian pun ada gak! huhu

saya masih ada kat belakang ni, jgn risau!

IT'S NOT AN EASY JOURNEY TO THE VILLAGE!
jungle tracking jadinya, turun bukit, naik bukit and seriously penat but it was a fun journey, best!
sampai sana minum air pastu balik mcm kelakar pulak bunyi nyer, huuhuhu.....masa nak balik tue, bebudak lelaki lain nak berjogging balik ke sana, but all the girls and i take the easy road dgn menaiki teksi boat, senang habis cerita! huhuhu....

Dah samapi pantai tue, apa lagi, tukar baju and terus terjun, and before that i did a really important thing, applying my sun block of course, huhuhu! Agak2 dah nak maghrib tu, kami pun balik mandi and solat

first night mcm tak der paper sgt, just pergi dinner and saya tido sgt awal mlm tue, penat kot tak cukops tido dlm bas the day before, huhuhu!
frustrated ada jugak kot, tapi kenapa yek? huhu
zharif jawab soalan tu!

Perhentian Here I Come!-Part 1-

2008-03-27T08:58:00.004+08:00

sudah semestinya semasa saya menaip ni, saya baru balik dari perhentian tu and masih mengantuk ni, huhuhu; but anyway saya nak cerita jugak!

Yang perginya ada 15 org semuanya, tapi hanaya ada 7 org yg bertolak dari KL, iaitu saya, Fir, Haizum, Zarina, Zak, Asma dan Yan dan kami menaiki bas pkl 9.30 mlm. Saya dan 5 org peprempuan tu bertolak ke perhentian putra dlm pkl 8.00 mlm dan si Fir ni sempat lak main bola ptg tue kat Shah Alam, selamat lah sempat sampai before bas bertolak! So, kami nerenak 6 ni pun singgah lah kat The Mall, and kelima-lima perempuan ni melantak McD (hehehe, Jgn marah), dan saya hanya tapau je and tapau fir punya sekali....

Untuk perjalanan yg jauh, kami kurang bernasib baik sebab dapat seat bas kat belakang sekali especially saya, fir, asma and zarina dan bas tu sgt laju mengikut kata zak dan yg lain2, dan saya just tutup mata dan buat bodoh serta berpura-pura tido(di sinilah yer mereka terperangkap, hahahaha) dan ini hanya terjadi selepas Fir melantak karipap zak, hahahaha. Masa saya berpura2 tido ni lah mereka mengumpat pasal hidung saya yg 'COMEL' ni, huhu, dan tetiba jer saya rasa hidung saya ni mmg besar, sampai kemana-mana pun org perasan yg hidung ni besar, hahahaha. Masa melaui Pahang Asma dgn tetiba nyer menjadi tourist guide kami menceritakan sedikit sebanyak tentang Bdr Bentong, and tak sangka semuanya berpura2 minat mendengarnya, hhuhu, jgn marah Asma.

Gedebak-Gedebuk, lebih kurang pkl 5 pagi kami sampai Kuala Besut, and teruslah menuju ke surau yg berhampiran dan surau itu masih terkunci, so kami tunggu sampai subuh baru dapat masuk, selepas subuh, apa lagi semua org sambung tido kecuali saya, sibuk menyapu sun block di muka dan tangan yg berharga nie, huhuhu. Dalam pkl 7 pagi kami bergerak mencari tmpt utk sarapan dan terumpa lah kedai yg berwarna hijau di antara kedai2 lain yg berwarna oren. Saya makan roti bakar jer!

Fir dan Muka ngantuk nyer yg dipaksa senyum!

Selesai makan yg lain pun tiba Tim, Miza, Wong, Adam, Azraq, Izaquan, Baang dan Mat Min.
Gedebak-Gedebuk, kita org naik bot around pkl 9 kot......

The Next Day!

2008-03-27T08:41:00.002+08:00

As i mentioned in previous post, that i was looking for the bus ticket to go to KL on the next day, and seriously many of the bus ticket for morning departure is sold out, and thank God there was still a bus that the timing just nice which is at 9.30 am, the yellow bus, causeway link bus. So, since tak der choice lain, i bought the ticket that night....

And on Sunday morning, after breakfast, tetiba jer uncle Rahim ajak tumpang dia. Well, saya tak nak salah kan sesiapa, tapi just meluahkan apa yg terbuku jer....and seriously ajakan itu membuat saya serba salah, tiket dah beli, and kalo 24 cent tak per jugak, ni RM 24 tak pasal2 membazir lak.
So, i was decided to go by bus jer, senang cerita tak menyusahkan org lain, tapi saya takut uncle Rahim tersinggung pula! But as i remember, on Friday night before the wedding, saya ada bagi tau uncle Rahim yg saya akan balik on Sunday, kenapa masa tue dia tak ajak terus? Muskhil kan!

But anyway, naik bus sampai dlm pkl 1.30pm, and kemas2 sikit terus keluar pergi last minute shopping dgn farhat and amri kat sungei wang, but before that i had my lunch at the pavillion, over kan! the last minute shopping tu before ke P.Perhentian that Sunday Night. So balik dlm pkl 6.00, and sampai rumah terus packing barang.

Seriously tak sabar nak pergi, tahu-tahu je lah kenapa kan!
huhuuhu....

Past in Present

2008-03-27T08:12:00.002+08:00

SO SORRY because lama gila tak update blog nie....huhuhu; well, I have been busy these past 2 weeks....

As you all knew that i been in the bread making class as a part of my elective activity, and i planned to learn how to cook for the next 1 week. I've planned all the dishes that i want to learn, but suddenly there was a few problems that stopping me from doing so; and i just managed to learn on Wednesday, and Thursday and total of 3 recipes.

Since i'm was unable to learn how to cook on Monday and Tuesday, I help my sisters and brother to pain the gates and all the tembok, and gosh, seriously tiring work and now i know what is the feeling of being all the contracter workers; to work in hot sunny day, all day long, everyday, it's just sooooo tiring.

And Saturday, ada wedding lagi, and it's my cousin's. The Akad Nikah ceremony was held in the morning at Masjid Jamek Kampung Melayu, and since my mom was the one who's is in charge for doing the 'barang hantaran' , we all been busy all the week to make it as beautiful as we can!!!
and of course it's absolutely wonderful as the pink purple as the colour themes. As any other typical malay wedding, ada jamuan tgh hari for family and friends, and it's held in Dewan Besar Kg Melayu, and i was in charge to pick up all the used polystyrenes and throw it away.
AND yg tak puas hati sikit tue, mcm aku sorang jer yg buat kerja 'DBKL' tue, well ni apa yg aku rasa lah...harap2 sedara mara yg terbaca post ni jgn lah kecik hati lak! and seriously hari yg sgt2 memenatkan! Eventhough penat, tapi mlm tu sempat lagi bershopping kat city square and bus ticket to kl for the next day!

I Told You I Was Busy!

Bread Story

2008-03-17T00:33:00.008+08:00

During the last weekend, i went to bread baking class. Apart of doing it for my elective, i went because i kind off like doing it. The class cost me RM 200 for 2 days and i got nearly 18 patterns of bread(not recipe, just pattern) and different kind of filling. Of course i been surrounding by mak cik-mak cik, but they were nice to me and definitely they all are expert doing thing like that. Well, not the best part is that i didn't take any picture of me doing the bread (1. my camera weren't with me, 2. my sister camera kind of ting tong at the moment, but i still bring her camera, 3. i don't want to dirty her camera, and she will be piss off, 4. everyone is busy doing their bread, so no one are free to take my picture, wish i have a cameraman)

Anyway, here are some pictures of my handmade breads, seriously!!!

Reminding my self not to be forgetfull!!!!

2008-03-12T11:15:00.002+08:00

I was so happy during last Friday because on Saturday I'll be voting for the first time in the general election and then off to KL for my cousin wedding on Sunday; and i have to see Kak Khairun on Monday, which mean that i have to stay in Bukit Jalil on sunday.

May be because of sooooooooooooo happy that i'm going back to KL, I FORGOT to bring my house keys, really-really crazy right! But that was just the beginning of the chain of my bad luck. I sms and called Zaeem, my new housemate which i never meet before and i found out that he's not from Dubai but from Pakistan; and he didn't reply my sms or answered my call, which i start to panic. Then I sms and called Naguib, and no answer from him either. While waiting for them to reply my message, i went to the toilet and i dropped my phone. I was a little bit lucky that the phone didn't went into the toilet bowl, but that doesn't make me relieved because my phone NOT WORKING. I'M REALLY2 PANIC AT THAT TIME. I need my phone firstly to make sure that i'm not homeless on sunday night and i need to call Kak Khairun the next day and i don't remember her number.........

I'm so afraid that the phone will not be working the next day, so i decided to buy the new one. So, i left my bags in the surau in Vista and straight to Sungei Wang Plaza. When i arrived there, suddenly i totally undecided whether one to buy a phone or not, i'm afraid that i'll wasting my money, or may be my old phone will be working, and seriously i just wasting my time there thinking. At the very last minute i decided to buy, just in case my phone still not working, and of course i just bought the most affordable one at that time, RM 120. After that i went straight to the surau, and it was around 10 when i arrived and terus plug in and charged my new phone, and Naguib and Zaeem did reply my messages. I called Naguib and i stayed one night in his house, but of course i have to rush since it was already late and i've to catch up the 2 trains

IT WAS SERIOUSLY A TIRING DAY FOR ME, MY BRAIN WAS SO TIRED AND NOT TO MENTION MY LEGS.

PENATTTTTTTTTTT!!!

The Day I'm 22 (yesterday :D)

2008-03-04T00:35:00.002+08:00

22 is a big number for me and i don't even feel that I'm 22(maybe I'm not ready to be 22, huhu).

Anyway, in these 22 years so many things happened and some of it not worth to remember, while many of it I've to remember forever, although some of it might be a little bit bitter to swallow. In fact, I'm living in the world of my own where it's opposing the main stream way of life, the norm of life. I've to secretly hide almost everything of my self, i just can't be my self in public. It's not that I'm a hypocrite person, it's just that people can' know who am I. Life experience thought me to be like this, it happened once in secondary school, which I'm almost lost a friend.

Losing a friend might not be a problem, but i just don't want to face the consequences if i tell everyone everything. I might as well living in a very hard time, totally different world if everyone know. So, to keep everything in place, i just have to be quite and normal. Don't get me wrong, I'm not hypocrite, there's something that i just can't let it go beyond my mouth. It's something only God and I know(and of course a few other)

Anyway, I'm hoping a year ahead will be a great year for me, and i hope i can learn more from life experience!

Happy Birthday Naufal!

Good Luck...

2008-02-27T00:17:00.002+08:00

Nothing much to say, and just want to wish my friends good luck in what ever they are doing now. Farhat, good luck with your submissions next week, you used to work under pressure and i'm sure you'll produce such a great drawing with your talent, and don't forget to shin-shining-shimering. As for Naguib, good luck with your tests, and the event that you and your friends are organizing, i'm sure it'll be a great event. And for my IMU friends, good luck with the sport carnival 'thinggy' that your guys organising.

For my friend in UK, study elok2, jgn asyik melancong jer, jealous aku tau......

ALL THE BEST FRIENDS!

If You Could SEE Me Now...

2008-02-25T13:17:00.006+08:00

She likened it to a childhood crush, such strong, almost obsessive, feelings-but more, it had depth.

She felt attracted to everything about Ivan-the way he talked, the way he dressed, the words he used, his apparent innocence yet he was filled with a deep knowledge of wise insights. He always said the right things, even when she didn't want to hear them.

The darkness lifted from the end of her tunnels and she could suddenly see beyond. When he breezed into the room he brought clarity and brightness with him. He was walking hope, and she could tell that things for her could be, not fantastic or wonderful or happily ever after, but that they could be OK.

And that was enough for Elizabeth.

If You Could See Me Now...
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She couldn't prevent him from invading her thoughts.

He was welcoming himself into her arms even they weren't open; he was dropping by her home uninvited yet she couldn't stop herself from opening her door time and time again.

If You Could See Me Now...
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I'd stood her up. Not intentionally. Not out of any malice but out of love.

Imagine not seeing someone because you loved them so much. Imagine hurting someone, making them feel lonely. angry and unloved because you think it's the best for them. All these new rules-they were making me doubt my abilities as best friend. They were beyond me, laws that i wasn't comfortable with at all.

How could i teach Elizabeth about hope, happiness, laughter, and love when i didn't know if i believed in those things anymore?

If You Could See Me Now...

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Don't ever take for granted when people look in your eyes - you've no idea how lucky you are.

Actually, forget about luck, you've no idea how important it is to be acknowledged, even if it is with an angry glare.

It's when they ignore you, when they look right through you, that you should start worrying.

If You Could See Me Now...

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When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise.

But as for your heart, when that breaks, it's completely silent. You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.

If there is a noise, it's internal.

It screams & no one can hear it but you. It screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches. It thrashes around in your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea; it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, a thrashing, panicking, trapped great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to its own emotion.

But that's the thing about love - no one is untouchable. It's as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent.

You're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it

If You Could See Me Now...

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She looked around at the view for another moment in silence.

'I used to hate this town, Benjamin,' a tear rolled down her cheek. 'I used to hate every single blade of grass on every hill, but he taught me so much. He taught me that it's not the job of this town to make me feel happy. It's not Baile na gCroithe's fault that i don't feel i fit in. It's doesn't matter where you are in the world because it's about where you are up here,'she touched the side of her head lightly.

'It's about the other world i inhibit. The world of dreams, hope, imagination and memories. I'm happy up here,' she tapped her temple again and smiled,'and because of that I'm happy up here too.'

She held out her arms and displayed the countryside around her. She closed her eyes and allowed the wind to dry her tears.

If You Could See Me Now...
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PROBLEMS.....

2008-02-24T21:02:00.003+08:00

Problem is just part of human life, they comes and goes as they pleased. People might be saying that, problem is nothing if we see it in the right angle (can anyone specified which angle is that, 90, 180 or 360 degree?). Well, it's true though when we accept the problem as a challenge, and perceive them as one of your 'teacher' for 'world survival' subject. It's does help you in the future if you face the similar problem. But sometime, to face it alone is really a burden on one's shoulder.

As for today, I really2 appreciate IMU warden, Kak Khairun and my friend Loqman, for helping me finding a new house mate for me (since I'm not in KL right now, so it's really kind of difficult to manage from far!!!). I really2 owe them (how about ice cream treat, would that be enough, huhuhu).

Anyway, his father complain quite a lot about the toilet, and a little bit worried about his son welfare there(i can sense through his voice). I'm might be exaggerating a little bit, but i found it quite annoying and not too polite when he want everything to be done in a blink of eyes. Fine, i called the house tenant, but he's currently not in town also, so what can i do then? So he said that today, he will take his son to the hotel and i'll be returning tomorrow ( tomorrow is the registration day), and i bet that i'll be receiving phone call/s from him tomorrow with unsatisfied tone, i'm very sure of that (pls forgive me if i've bad impression on ppl that i don't even meet)

Well, i can't blame his father either(yes, i put the blame on me!! so sad). I know how he felt to leave his son alone in this very new country and environment to him(did i ever mention his from Dubai?), and for the first time away from family, live alone(seriously alone since everyone in the house leaving for holiday). I knew his father worried for him, but what can i do?

At this particular moment, i'm thinking of going back to KL and help him around, but i really unsure for that( i just get back here few days back!!!!). Can anyone give me any suggestion? Please, persimpangan Delima ni........

Saturday!!!!!!!

2008-02-23T16:51:00.004+08:00

I just love Saturday, want to know why?
It's because, Saturday :

start of weekend
i can wake up late
i just love to watch cartoooooon on saturday, so many channels, so many choices!
used to go for band practice in EC(I missed all these, seriously and i still remember we used to make it possible even though it's holiday, huhu)
hang out with friends
sleep over Naguib house and of course meronggeng dgn Farhat and Naguib!!

Hobby...

2008-02-22T23:59:00.003+08:00

Before i start 'merepek', the word hobby reminds me when i was in primary school, because i can say that this is really famous topic for essay writing, duhh!!

Anyway, when i was child, my teachers always say that having a hobby/hobbies is really good because it can avoid us from wasting our time(this is so my first point for essay, hahaha.....now elaborate). Well, it's true but just recently i was thinking about this, doest it necessary involves an amount of money?

Of course hobby can be anything, from boring hobbies to interesting one! But usually the interesting one will come along with the usage of money for example, reading(hey, it can be interesting if you have a good imagination!!!). Yes, reading can cost you a lot, especially those who like to read their own books rather than borrowing it from library(this is so me ;D). For me, reading your own book give difference kind of satisfaction and you can take all the time in this world to finish your reading, and you can read it all over again as you pleased, or you can pass down the book to your kids(haha, tahan lah pulak buku tu kan!). To own the book, you need money and books and novels are not cheap (at least for me). Usually, 1 novel will cost around RM 30-35, it's affordable, but people who really love to read they can finish reading a book in 2/3 days, given that they have nothing to do!!

Besides reading, of course ada jer benda lain yg boleh di jadikan hobi+money, for instance bowling and ice skating....of course people don't play bowling and go ice skating everyday, but everytime you want to do it, you must have something in your wallet/pocket(money of course). But a few minute a go i thought 'peduli apa, guna duit ke tak ke, yg penting aku enjoy!!!'

oklah, tetiba rasa mengantuk lak!!

Istimewanya Dia...

2008-02-22T11:13:00.003+08:00

A song i dedicate To those 'Special' people in my life
(Great formation by the way!)

Home

2008-02-22T00:37:00.004+08:00

Home at last after long months in KL. I took the bus at 10 am (21.2.08), and usually it will take around 5 hours for a bus to travel from KL to JB. Surprise surprise, today the bus driver only took 3 hours to arrive here in my lovely hometown. Everyone kind of 'terkejut' because i arrived early, especially my mom, which she's really worried because definitely the bus driver driving very fast. Well, it's nature of a mother to worry about their children, plus there are so many accident cases that involve buses nowadays. For me, of course i was pleased because i don't have to sit in the bus for 5 hours, and i just can't wait to be at home.......
what a relieved!!!!!

And as for the first day at home, nothing much i did today, but I'm sure tomorrow(today i guess) will be a whole new day to start something new(still hasn't figure out what would it be, hahaha). I has so many interesting idea that i want to do, and most of them are not approved by the M gender (pretty sure about that). Anyway, I'll be starting my elective on 10 March, yet still haven't plan what to do (rough idea adalah)